Me-volution

Entry for September 04, 2006

Tue, 05 Sep 2006 03:51:21 GMT

A photo named pOjwMDDww6

Kinkiness score

Mon, 16 Jan 2006 16:20:30 GMT

Expert
You scored 74% Kinkiness!

You've done all of the positions in most of the books, you've found out about safe-words and understood what I was talking about with the whole safe-sane-consentual. You've probably discovered at least the BDSM sites online, maybe even local groups and have been learning all about your favorite fetish. You enact those fantasies which aren't too taboo and play out in your head during sex the ones you aren't sure how your partner will react. Remember, communication is everything, they can always say no or ask for a compromise. You never know, they might hold the same fantasy in their head, afraid of how you'll react to it.

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 90% on Kinkiness

Link: The How Kinky Are You Really Test written by monkeyqueen9 on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

Entry for January 10, 2006

Tue, 10 Jan 2006 13:28:50 GMT

These are some of the bite marks left on my body last weekend. Boss also left marks on my shoulders - left and right, front and back - and on my arm, neck, and ass as well as these on my thigh. Note, if you will, that these bite marks are decidedly 3D. My thighs are not usually lumpy, so that is all about the pressure of the bites.

About me

Mon, 09 Jan 2006 20:47:14 GMT

I'm an out lesbian.
I'm currently 35 years old.
I have two teenage children.
I live in the 'burbs, just myself, the kids, and a couple of pets.
I am in a committed, monogamous relationship with Boss, who is a few years older than I am.
I was in an abusive marriage very young.
I learned some important lessons during my marriage.
One thing I learned is that I am a submissive.
Another thing I learned is that it is critical, urgent, of utmost importance, that a submissive's partner be worthy of her trust.
I am a very verbally-oriented person. Boss is very action-oriented.
I work in a white collar 9-to-5 type job.
I hope to eventually wear Boss' collar.
I have always enjoyed a certain level of pain. I can remember my mother's being disturbed when she realized this. I was probably about 10 years old at that point.
I had the same realization about my younger daughter when she was in first grade and went through a phase of requesting spankings.
No, I did not tell her what I thought it meant. Some things are best learned without a parent's direct help.
I have an anonymous boy on ecstasy to thank for teaching me that I liked my hair pulled when I was 18.
I was in a relationship with one woman for almost a decade.
I was submissive to her, but she would only acknowledge her domainance in non-kinky parts of life and in fact was so dominant that I quickly learned I could not initiate sex with her because it resulted in her withholding every time.
Although I am submissive and primarily a bottom, that does not mean that I am a doormat, don't look out for myself, or will not ask for what I want.
I am the one who asked Boss if she would explore BDSM with me, not the other way around.
I have other websites, but I am not as open on them.
I have had lovers obsess about how tight my pussy is, yet Boss' is tighter.
I lost my virginity to a boy when I was just 13, but he thought I was older.
I didn't have sex with a woman until I was 20.
As far as I can recall, I never had an orgasm with any of the four dozen or so men I fucked.
As far as I can recall, I have had an orgasm with every woman I've fucked for longer than a day.
I am definitely enjoying an improvement in my sex life in my thirties, but I hope I haven't hit my peak yet.
For me, submission and discipline are about much more than sex.
I am not usually attracted to feminine women. Generally I prefer butch or androgynous women, and I prefer that they be taller and heavier than I am.
I am taller than and almost as heavy as Boss, but she is definitely not as feminine as I am.

Getting started

Mon, 09 Jan 2006 20:13:30 GMT

I talked with Boss this weekend and get her to tell me more specifically about the who and where and when and how of her history with BDSM. She really didn't have to know anything except that it didn't freak her out and that she's not a big nelly bottom, and I'd be happy to explore the rest with her, but it's good that she already had some experience. She knows, for example, that she likes both topping and bottoming in a strictly physical sense, but in a psychological sense, she is only suited to topping. That's very good for me. She also knows that she enjoys inflicting some types of pain and that she does not want to be on the receiving end. Also very good. We figured those basics out very early on, because there's no sense in our trying to continue if she wants to be ass-raped and is horrified at the thought of flogging someone, for example.

Oh, did I mention that I plan to be completely blunt on here? Why the hell not, right?

Sometimes it's hard to read Boss. She gets uncommunicative, and it doesn't necessarily mean anything is wrong, but if it was, I wouldn't know. Not knowing when I suspect or know there is something I really want to or should know is the number one thing that will spin me up into anxiety.

So, here are some topics I figure I ought to cover (this will serve as a list to remind me):

What we've done
Who we are
What we're trying to do
Where we run into bumps in the road
Some fantasies and plans of ours
Toys and accessories
Good links, when I find them

Beeeeeep

Thu, 08 Dec 2005 05:15:00 GMT

I would just like to state for the record that orgasm denial definitely qualifies as sadism. I now return you to your regularly scheduled night's activities.

Entry for December 01, 2005

Thu, 01 Dec 2005 21:19:40 GMT

The bottle of lotion on my desk is like me with multiple orgasms. It looks like it has nothing left. It feels tapped out. Yet every time I go back and try for more, I find it there.

Entry for November 30, 2005

Thu, 01 Dec 2005 00:04:27 GMT

If this works, it will be my first post on my new blog. Welcome to Me. I am a lesbian submissive, happily partnered, suburban mom, computer geek. I may talk about any of that, and probably will, so if you are under 18, or disturbed by open discussion of human sexuality - including some of its less common aspects - please go away. There are lots of blogs out there, and some will be better suited to your needs. I do not intend to censor myself here, except as appropriate to respect the privacy of people mentioned here. If you are ok with all of that, then hang out a bit and we'll get to know each other better.