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Entry for January 10, 2007

Wed, 10 Jan 2007 21:25:02 GMT

Hey I have been busy lately on Myspace with a blog I do about music. Its lots of fun but takes a lot of my time. So I haven't been here in a while. I will try to come back more often to use this space for other types of blogging. But till then I wish everyone a Happy New Year!

Entry for August 25, 2006

Fri, 25 Aug 2006 20:54:13 GMT

wow has it relly been that long since I posted anything here. well I haven't been drawing or taking pictures lately so i haven't had a lot to post and I started posting to MySpace angain yesterday and plan to start being more consistant again. what that means is for those of you who used to come by to check out what I have to say I will try to be more obliging but I am more often easier to find on MySpace. My page gets accessed here more it seems but no one seems to leave messages or ask to be a friend here so I am not sure that the numbers are correct for how many people check out this page. If you want to hear from me here please say so and I will try a little harder!!

Ciao bella

Scott

Entry for July 01, 2006

Sat, 01 Jul 2006 19:06:11 GMT

Happy July all! Just around the corner is the 4th and I am probably not doing anything special. My family is not getting together that I know of, I keep asking and everybody is twiddling their thumbs, so I assume they are, but they are all doing their own thing this year. Which means I need to find something to do, but I stopped caring about the 4th years ago when my children got older and we now live in a state where firing off your own is not allowed. So usually that means get togethers and picnics and if no one is doing anything then it isn't always fun to do them by yourself. Don't have a special someone to do things with so I guess I might go to a movie or a bar depending on how I feel. Don't go to bars very often, guess I haven't found one I especially like and drinking can be fun but isn't all that important to me I guess. well I hope everyone has a fun 4th this year. For me my holiday will come when the San diego Comic Con starts later in the month. Talk at everyone later!

Entry for May 16, 2006

Wed, 17 May 2006 05:40:06 GMT

The Picture above is of Anna Troy one of my favorite local singers, she sings and plays the blues just the way I like them.

Well tomorrow I go back to work. Not singing the blues about that I am actually looking foward to it. But it is just a little scary since it has been so long. Maaybe now I will get to eat a little better. Things have finally gotten hectic and I was eating whatever came my way which has been all the wrong thins and I have put on 6 pounds but it looks like 20 to me and I really don't want to back pedal. So once I get some money it will be salad, salad, salad again. Not really i will just need to jumpstart my metabolism again and also take of the water weight I seem to be keeping. I think I have been eating too many salty things lately and too many soda's (not diet). Bad habits are hard to kill. So back to diet soda's (they are actually getting hard to find in the stores lately) Less salty food and maybe I will have to prepare more of it myself to do that. that's usually how I control that. (you wouldn't believe how much salt the average fast food meal has. Fast food is not good for you in the first place but the amount of salt we ingest is staggering) So anyway wish me luck on my new job and getting back on track with my diet or the word die in diet might just catch up to me again and I don't need that. Ciao

Entry for May 11, 2006

Thu, 11 May 2006 22:36:46 GMT

Here is a photo of me and my niece waiting for a bus to go to a movie back in January almost 4 months ago and probably 35 lbs ago. I now weigh in at 240 so it is nice once in a while to look back at these old photos and see how much weight I have lost. Because it is disheartening to see yourself in the mirror everyday and not see any difference. Here's to walking and starving oneself it works wonders. It is funny though people who have been coming to this page since it began may wonder why the first picture I had on here looked like I was really thin in the face and all I have to say about that was that the first 40 lbs or so came off my face and I still had a belly. Then I had no belly at all but my legs and face blew up and ballooned. Now I have a little more belly again, mostly excess fat just hanging down as loose skin. slender legs and arms and a chuberic face again. I don't know when I will just look my weight proportionally again I actually am looking forward to the next strange body change I will go through. Who knows maybe I am losing some bone size too. I don't have to support so much weight anymore so maybe thats next. Only about 40 more to go. I 'm sure it will be the toughest weight to lose yet!

Entry for May 05, 2006

Sat, 06 May 2006 04:58:25 GMT

Cry For me Lucy

Apparently I am a useless human being who latches on to people. I need to get my life in order. Also I need to see a counselor or psychiatrist because I felt I needed a friend and I guess I talked or wanted to hangout with this friend too much. Once again I guess I didn't see the signs that I really wasn't liked or wanted around and I was too thick headed to notice. Again I bothered someone for existing. But too bad I am here and I can't go away.

So this week and next I am trying to get my life back together. I decided to go back to work. People need you for work. So I'll lose myself there. I also need a good Bankruptcy lawyer or firm so if anyone knows a really cheap one in San Diego. I would appreciate it. I am not worthy to have friends or God would have not let this happen. I will still try to go out and listen to music or go see a movie by myself. Maybe I'll invite a psychiatrist along so they will see what is wrong with me. Just a stupid old man who fell in love and then failed at even friendship. So truly there must be something wrong with me. Maybe I expect too much. Or maybe I just don't know how it all works. I make mistakes and never learn from them. But for the last time. I think I will learn from this one. Don't trust friends, they are only lying to you . They never wanted to be your friend in the first place. They only think you are pathetic and need help. Maybe I do, or maybe I just needed real friendship.

Entry for April 25, 2006

Tue, 25 Apr 2006 07:52:45 GMT

Here is a great picture I took at the Adams Avenue Roots Festival this past weekend. I took a bunch of photo's but I really liked this one. It was cloudy and at the end of the day but the sun was there too. It just made a perfect littly scene I had to try and capture. I had a great time at the festival. It was full of music, crafts and food. All my fav's I will try to show some more pics later. Ciao!

Entry for April 21, 2006

Sat, 22 Apr 2006 02:28:32 GMT

Here is another fun Picture from the Santa Monica Pier while I was up there.

Well here it is Friday and yet. Again as many things that I do during the week. I am stuck home on a Friday. This time it is mostly my fault. I have been sick all week and have been trying to get better by staying home, which is hard for me to do. When I had no friends I went out all day, walking, and ended coming home with no where to go on Friday nights. In fact that was most nights. But then I joined a few online groups and started meeting people. I have made some good friends. I think people tire of me sometimes so I try to stay out of peoples hair once in a while. This time I just have nothing to do because I am sick. I made tenative plans to do stuff with friends. Of course they all had something else planned. So I would have been on my own on Friday again had I not been sick. So for once I get to look at sickness as a saving grace. Because as often as I go out during the week. I always find it a hard time going out, on Friday and Saturday. It is almost like I have weekday friends but not weekend friends, except Sunday. I meet one friend on Sunday and sometimes do something with them either that afternoon or in the evening. But for some reason I can't (even when I orchestrate it) get anyone to do anything even if I have the way to get everyone inThey seem to be always busy. Its kinda weird? I know its a coincidence but it has always been this way my whole life. So maybe its me, maybe I sabotage myself with out meaning to. Well I guess it just something to work on. Enough philosophising and being melancholy I guess I am just sick. So go read someone else's blog who is feeling better I will have a more upbeat one next time you show up. At least, maybe one about Music, there's always music. Later.

Entry for April 18, 2006

Wed, 19 Apr 2006 02:38:14 GMT

Ah flowers make me feel nice when I am sicker than a dog. It seems my Sinus infectiction has now downgraded to a cold. This is my first cold or chest complication since my surgery and it is like I just got off the table again. Even the pain pills are not helping. Going to the doctor didn't help. I have been trying to take it easy and stay in but tomorrow at 7:45 am I have to go do Jury Duty. I think someone is hating me right now. and doing Internet Voodoo or something. Blah! Save me from Jury Duty. But I have no excuse to not go. So go I will. Hopefully I will feel better in the morning. I will just take a book and try to forget how I feel and hope I don't get picked for more duty. Everyone out there can do me a favor and pray for me to get better or to find that Voodoo person!
See ya later. I'm out

Entry for April 17, 2006

Mon, 17 Apr 2006 15:14:26 GMT

I named this picture "Spiders in the Sand" because when they are grouped like that , thats what they reminded me of

Well I have been very busy lately with my friends and haven't been able to blog but things will probably calm down now. At least a little bit because I have some kind of chest virus that keeps lingering on. Going to a doctor today so maybe she can help get rid of it. I have been listening to new music all over San Diego and it just keeps getting better. But all these late nights, no sleep and bad eating (or no Eating) habits have taken their toll. So I need to rest up so I can do it all over again I have never had a better time in my life. See you all the next time.