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Entry for January 07, 2006

Sun, 08 Jan 2006 03:15:48 GMT

The call came Thursday evening. A member from my old church wanted to check in with me and see how I have been doing. During the conversation she mentioned about Jenny and that she was not doing so well battling the cancer. Such a lovely woman of 3 college boys and a strong Christian. I put her on my "Things to do list". I told myself to call her house on Saturday when my youngest would be napping and encourage her to hang in there.

This Saturday I woke up with all my "things to do" on my mind. Go to the gym, put the young one down, call Jenny, go grocery shopping...etc.

THE CALL: 9:30am Saturday, January 7th

"Hi, this is Mike from church. We've activated the calling tree and wanted with sad news to let you know that Jenny past away last night."

I sat on my bed quietly, salty tears streaking down my face like shooting stars. I was going to call her this afternoon....I was going to call her-

Entry for January 06, 2006

Fri, 06 Jan 2006 15:28:52 GMT

It's Friday, Thank you God. I tried to get up but just could not. I didn't stay up to late, but had no umphh in me to get out of bed. Once I was in the shower I was good to go.

I looked out my window this morning and each time the mountains look so beautiful. It's the same mountain range, but yet She strikes a majestic look every mourning. I do miss the beach and sand very much but I don't ever remember talking about how lovely the ocean looked every weekend...I just hooked my leash on and went boogie boarding!

To all my family and friends who gander at my page--- have a blessed day and find something small...ever so small that you can thank God for. Hasta la vista

NRG

Entry for January 05, 2006

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 15:19:35 GMT

I had unusual dreams about spiders last night. Everytime I told myself to wake up out of the dream, I would drift off and go right back in it. Very crazy.

There was this movie on PBS last night called Yesterday. It was about a woman and her husband who contracted AIDS while living in South Africa. I missed the beginning part but caught most of the movie. Very compelling and good directing. I was filled with rage, anger, happiness and laughter all during the movie. Actually, I started to cry at one point....that's been a long time since I did that while watching a movie. But it felt good.

Today will be a busy-body day like it usually is. My fingers turned white again on my left hand-- if I forget my gloves one more time!!

I hope you all have a good day. From the words of my girl Mary J. Blige--- "if a door closes, just remember that the one next door may be open"....meaning: opportunities come all the time-- just look for them.

Agape-

NRG

Entry for January 04, 2006

Wed, 04 Jan 2006 15:27:58 GMT

Stressful morning with the girls. Who told my little one that it was ok to have both feet in one pair of socks! WHY I outa!!

Still in some pain but choosing to ignore it. Surgeon's assistant yesterday said I needed to come in for another shot. Forget that...they have genie pigged on me for way to long. I need relief from all this pain in my leg and ready to get back to training. It's my way of life...and so far, this life of running has been slow. Turtle slow...

Going to be a good stewart at my job and get back to work. My fingers now work...I had a horrible case of Reynaud's and could not even bend two of my fingers. If you don't know what it is...look it up and view photos---yuckkk

Enjoy the day you have been given.

NRG

Entry for January 03, 2006

Tue, 03 Jan 2006 22:44:13 GMT

Back at work. My bed was so warm and I did not want to get out...but I did. Then the shower was so warm...and I did not want to get out....but I did. Then my tea was so warm, I did not want to stop drinking it...but I had to-- cuz it was all gone.

Dropped my sis off at the airport. We survived each other for 10 days...whew...that was a first. Sometimes it's hard being the little sister to your "big BABY sister". I hold down the fort in the Crosby-kids pool, but it was a nice visit. Next visitor will be my hommie from Cali and her two kids...man my house is gonna be loud---but it'll be fun.

Found out my phone line is jacked up and will have to pay over $100 for someone to come out for like 3 minutes to tell me some news I don't wanna hear . I'll sit on that one for a day or two.

I ate some delicious fresh food for lunch. I tell ya'...that is the way to go---fresh.

To all, have a good day.

Entry for January 02, 2006

Mon, 02 Jan 2006 17:08:24 GMT

Yaa for being off of work. I'm so not ready to start the 5 day a week grind to preparing for work in the morning. The sun is out and a few clouds in the sky. It's raining like cats and dogs in Cali...the poor tournament of Roses Parade is soaked.

Some of my friends have called me telling me thier new years resolution. Hang in there friends and stick with it. One of my friends said she's gonna stop cutting her eyes at people. Haha...sorry (********)--- I've known you way to long, that aint gonna happen. He hehee

Have a good day folks

Entry for January 01, 2006

Sun, 01 Jan 2005 23:45:04 GMT

What can I say but THANK you GOD for the start of 2006. I woke up tired and sleepy this morning but made my way to the shower and off to church. Glad I went. Man, the preacher was preachin'! You know the kind of sermon that hits ya'...hits ya where it hurts cuz it's talking right to you. I'm really diggin' my new church.

I can see out of my window red skies at night...sailors delight. Hoping for nice weather again tomorrow. So it's a new year and I'm so so ready for more challenges and all that life has. There will be hard times, good times and all the times in between.

Have a great evening folks.

NRG

Entry for December 31, 2005

Sat, 31 Dec 2005 21:09:00 GMT

The year in review:

Woke up January 1st 2005 and decided to look at houses for me and my girls. I wanted to do what I thought was impossible in my current status (single mom with two beautiful girls)

Company moved again (3rd office)

Official divorce

Competed in All American State Games- 1st in Long Jump and 100m for my age group....I rock!!

Bought my house...it's cute

Zero funerals + 4 baby showers + 1 Wedding...in which I was the cuttest bridesmaid and my daughter the cuttest flower girl.

Injuries and more injuries...darn sports

Met some folks throughout the year that let me learn life's lessons the hard way--- they no longer are in the "inner circle" of LD's friends. Erased from address books and deleted from memory in my cell. Life goes on.

I am happy because I choose to be happy. Negative driven people hear less from me now a days...they can call Dr. Phil on that one. I'm there for my friends like I always have been and the others get shifted to the way-side. I realized this year that my dad said we will always have to make choices in life, therefore I choose to surround myself with true friends and those who make me laugh. Life can be hard, but not if you are giggling most of the time.

I look forward to 2006. A few goals:

1. Start up Wellness Consulting

2. Get Certified in PT through the American

Entry for December 22, 2005

Fri, 23 Dec 2005 05:11:26 GMT

Ten o'clock and the night is still young. From the wise words of Mister T...I pitty the fool who sleeps the day away. I like staying up late- my mind seems to think more clearer in the wee hours of the night.

Children sleeping, TV blarring, wash machine churning...and a half glass of Merlot.

It's cold in the house, but the last utility bill brought tears to my eyes. Is it the oil company's? I don't know, someone's to blame for me not enjoying a truly warm house. They say that 'Love' warms the heart and home...well, I'll be turning 'Love' out in full force in that case. Burrr...

Enjoy the moon and the stars..