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Entry for August 13, 2006

Sun, 13 Aug 2006 15:48:55 GMT

CD slavegurl now known as CDtawni_DLC was collared...owned also entered into servitude and femme training 08/13/06 By Ms DarkLady Camille........Thank You Mistress

Entry for August 04, 2006

Fri, 04 Aug 2006 10:16:37 GMT

Dearest Lexi.......love the pics hon.......poop or get off the pooper could well be directed towards me as we both know.......your tastes , openness and kink are so in tune with my own that the fact we haven't connected is totally in my corner.......right around the corner and yet never openned the door ......I have spent a time or two thinking about just being your bitch ......being led kicking and screaming into the light but not fighting hard enough to ruin my makeup lol ......... hmmmmm, gotta go to work so I'll write more later........ TGIF ,tho those retired folk don't remember that as well as us working people ........smiles

Entry for August 03, 2006

Thu, 03 Aug 2006 22:28:36 GMT

TOO MUCH HEAT !!!!!!!!...........as my face melts into my cleavage I remember why Tawni takes a sabatical during the summer lol .........too much work and not nearly enough frosty drinks this summer but it will pass .......... and I remind myself that if it weren't for the summer heat then I wouldn't appreciate the arrival of cooler air in the fall..........So I have an off the wall situation for anyone who might care to respond......as a guy I'm ok , not too hard on the eyes , pretty fit for an old fart and thank God always a blend of both genders when it comes to who I am which in my mind means that I do listen when people talk and I do care about others and feel compassion which is the greatest blessing that comes with this odd gender mix that is me..........soooooooo , the situation is this.........I find myself a pretty in demand guy this summer........me lol ........a crossdressing , hair fetish , kinky ,possibly TG leaning part time gurl......... 5 women are in active pursuit of me .......and let me be clear that I love women , adore who they are and what they do and respond to their attention but......no a big BUT ....... I will never , could never give up my femme side......might just as well cut off an arm ....... so like a dog chasing a car and catching it , just what the hell do I do now? ........ one I've told about me in an effort to scare her away , she is far too young (24) , and I might just as well been talking to the moon ......another is a neighbor which could create all sorts of problems even without the Cd thing........I am not a player , never have been and each move I make to run just seems to up the intensity of the chase........AAANNDD to top it off I would love to find a girl who likes this stuff.......so I sit , frozen in time........too afraid to become real .........anyone who thinks God doesn't have a really odd sense of humor doesn't really have their eyes open lol..........so anyhow any thoughts...........oh and a big PS would be that I really like to meet another gurl like me and explore that unopenned side of me also ....... Thank you God lol

Entry for July 27, 2006

Fri, 28 Jul 2006 01:34:59 GMT

Hi all ! Hope all are well and surviving the heat . Summer is fun. Pooltime , frosty drinks, music playing and just being in the sun. Boy mode rules this time of year . It's too hard trying to explain a suddenly hairless chest tho lord knows my legs after all these years of trying to be both genders have stopped trying to grow any hair worth mentioning lol . It does make for opportunities tho when someone says to me, " Gee, your legs are smoother then my girlfriends? What's that all about?" My normal response is to say it just ruins the look of my pantyhose and the questions ,at least to my face usually end . And it's funny because at some point ,maybe this fall or winter, that comment will be put back to me , usually by a GF of someone there when the initial question was asked about my legs and then maybe while a bit drunk I'll spill the beans. Some of my best friends now began with that question. Anyway , I just wanted to post something to let myself know that "she" is alive and well and that the dormant stage will pass and God help us all lol . I don't know if all are like me but being in the closet,as I am, I find each year I go just a bit further then the year before and wow I look forward to it. Just as I'm looking forward to a slumber party with a local gurl this fall. Joy,sweetie , we could get in sooooooo much trouble !!!!!

Stay well all and enjoy each day for we are blessed being who we are and where we are.

Hugz, Tawni

Entry for July 04, 2006

Tue, 04 Jul 2006 11:35:29 GMT

Happy 4th of July everybody and a special thank you to all those helping to preserve our freedom around the world today and everyday. May God bless all of us with a path to peace .

TGIF

Fri, 16 Jun 2006 11:37:34 GMT

Friday and I'm off !!!!! ........tho I did go in this morning at 5:30 am just to kill that one beast that would have been waiting for me later lol .......so now the day is mine and friends are coming over to swim and drink and hear music ........hey , it's a tough life but somebody has to live it lol ........no dressing recently because summer is here and boy time rules which is ok because it makes the anticipation all the greater for the next evolution of whatever this journey is that I'm on..........lots of women suddenly in my life none of whom know of tawni ......it's funny but I am closer to just letting the women that interest me and seem to share that interest just know up front who I am (as if I know lol ) and seeing what happens ...... it would be such a hoot just to have a GG who wants to play with makeup and hair , share wine and laughter and maybe more......... it always seems ashame to me that I have like 30 wigs and no one to share the transformation potential of them........ the women in my life that have most aroused me are those who are constantly changing their look and style ...... my ex was one who would color her hair often and wasn't afraid to be different and it was like being with a shape-shifter , you never knew who you'd come home to.......... anyway, I just felt like writting something and this is it........be well all and happy and as they say in the movies , "seize the day".

continued from previous entry

Sun, 04 Jun 2006 11:47:15 GMT

.......seems my computer ate the rest of the last entry lol..........so I cherish the relationship I have with Kim and James........and his reaction?.........a bit put out because Kim won't allow him to bust on me about it........and trust me in this group we bust on each other about any mis-step or foul up........so his reaction is just so normal and perfect........Kim and James thank you both......and James, take your best shot but remember the bear ..........love ya both ....... Tawni

Entry for June 04, 2006

Sun, 04 Jun 2006 11:38:39 GMT

Hi all........interesting weekend so far......too much work and play which is a very good blend ......getting real life tasks done especially those that have been hanging around one's neck like an anchor makes the play well deserved........I recently told a girl friend of mine about Tawni......this friend,Kimmie K, is a sweet heart and engaged to a very good friend and fellow workmate James.........Kim is one of those people who always has a twinkle in her eyes and a wonderful smile and laugh and it seems a bit of experience with CDs and TVs from earlier in her life.......so Friday while sharing a drink with the "group" of friends and in drab we had our first chance to chat about Tawni........her openness about this was so refreshing that it gives me hope that that certain GG is really out there somewhere for me........and then she told me that she shared everything with James !!!!! .........OMG........as far as I know he is the first guy to find out about my other side and we work together.........I was a bit stunned and listened as she explained that she had to share it because she loves this man and knows this man and if he really is the man she thinks he is then his reaction would be fine........ they both have seen all of my "stuff" and read all of my comments and the reaction? Well, they both think that it ties together alot of loose ends in me, the whole me, and that is doesn't change anything in our relations which I cherish.......

Summertime blue

Wed, 31 May 2006 10:14:06 GMT

the last day of May and where the heck did it go?.........been far too busy with real life stuff to even think about time for "other" options.........I love summer , the heat ,being by the pool, frosty drinks,music playing with food on the grill.......I hate summer, the heat,makeup melting,hairy chest and underarms, incorrect tan lines.........note to Lexi , I haven't forgotten hon just far too guy like to consider other options right now........so life is normal , having its own course and direction and really whichever way it drifts it is sweet and each part worthy of display...... anyway I just wanted to write something to let myself know that both sides of me still exists and are well........it's gonna be hot today,where did I leave that bikini........smiles all and be well

Entry for May 12, 2006

Sat, 13 May 2006 02:23:30 GMT

i am so wanting to be femme right now......no time nor space at the moment but that doesn't stop the need........i could be such a slut right now........on my knees sub to you.........