<![CDATA[Jess's Blog]]> http://blog.360.yahoo.com/blog-EQDk3bU7aLPBXrYku8aF en-us Fri, 28 Jul 2006 05:34:10 GMT <![CDATA[Oh How Time Flies....]]> http://blog.360.yahoo.com/blog-EQDk3bU7aLPBXrYku8aF?p=63 So I haven't blogged in a bit, but here's a lil something to tie me over til next time.. I've actually been living... *gasp* I have a MAD addiction to local bands like Prognosis - http://www.myspace.com/prognosis who I've only seen once but intend to see a lot more & Chrome 44 - http://www.myspace.com/chrome44 or http://www.chrome44.com who I've seen a few times.These guys play their hearts out at EVERY show. I intend to be at every show possible, as none are the same. I have super respect for them. They are regular Joe's with AWESOME talent and if they have egos (which they should) you don't see it. All too many bands, local n otherwise, are headstrong and cocky.  Don't get me wrong, as its rightful for some, but to make it you gotta be human first.
On a more personal note, Raegan turned 4 on Wednesday!! Yes, that means I am getting older as well. It does not seem like 4 yrs ago. Seems like just a year ago, I had Payton (minus her nonstop talkin and her HUGE diva attitude). I could not have asked for better kids. They are each other's best friend and they are my life. Come what may they are two of the most beautiful and smartest kids I know. They teach me something new about myself and about them everyday that I didn't know the day before. I am one lucky mother. 
I got my tongue pierced a lil over a week ago. I have successfully done EVERYTHING I said as a teen that I'd never do, i.e. NEVER have kids, NEVER pierce anything but ears, AND NEVER get a tattoo.. haha all is well that ends well eh! So that's about all for now. Until next time.....

]]> Fri, 28 Jul 2006 05:34:10 GMT <![CDATA[Survival of the Fittest... HAH!]]> http://blog.360.yahoo.com/blog-EQDk3bU7aLPBXrYku8aF?p=60 OK SO SATURDAY, JUNE 17, WAS BUZZFEST! WHAT A SHOW!! A BLAST WAS HAD BY ALL NO DOUBT.  THE LINE UP INCLUDED... STAIND, HOOBASTANK, 3 DAYS GRACE, CANDLEBOX, BLUE OCTOBER, BUCK CHERRY, TRAPT, AND LAST BUT CERTAINLY NOT LEAST SHINEDOWN(ALL PREVIOUSLY STATED WERE ON THA MAIN STAGE.). THAT LEADSINGER OF SHINEDOWN HAS AN AURA ABOUT HIM THAT I HAVE NEVER SEEN BEFORE. SO POSITIVE IN WORDS AND HIS ACTIONS. VERY NICE TO SEE. ENOUGH FOR NOW... MY BODY HURTS STILL HAHA

-JESS

]]> Fri, 23 Jun 2006 08:12:03 GMT <![CDATA[stupid people... *sigh*]]> http://blog.360.yahoo.com/blog-EQDk3bU7aLPBXrYku8aF?p=53  This link is a petition AGAINST Breed Specific Aggressiveness or whatever that means, California Legislature is trying to pass something to RID OF ALL PITBULL dogs. This is not fair, other breeds attack more than these pits do. We can't stop the breeding and production of stupid ppl, we damn sure shouldn't stop the breeding and production of an animal that is made that way by this kind of ppl. Anyway, if you agree pls sign this petition and have a good day all of you! - Jess
http://www.petitiononline.com/NOBSL/petition.html]]> Wed, 08 Mar 2006 14:43:15 GMT <![CDATA[Funny Stuff!]]> http://blog.360.yahoo.com/blog-EQDk3bU7aLPBXrYku8aF?p=51 SUV Black Box Statistics:
The US government covertly funded a project with the U.S. auto  makers for the past five years, whereby the auto makers were installing  black box voice recorders in four-wheel drive pickup trucks and SUV's  in an effort to determine, in fatal accidents, the circumstances in the  last 15 seconds before the crash.

They were surprised to find in 43 of the 50 states the recorded  last words of drivers in 61.2 percent of fatal crashes were, "Oh,Shit!" 

Only the states of Georgia, Oklahoma, Mississippi, Louisiana,  Arkansas, Alabama and Texas were different, where 89.3 percent of the  final words were: "Hold my beer, I'm gonna try somethin."

]]> Thu, 16 Feb 2006 19:33:05 GMT <![CDATA[hah!]]> http://blog.360.yahoo.com/blog-EQDk3bU7aLPBXrYku8aF?p=48 well since my last blog, I went and got a tattoo and had my hair cut n dyed back to my natural brown. U know it is amazing what a lil change can do for you from time to time. I had been in a lil bit of a down point but not any longer. By that down point, don't get it twisted, I never for one minute had a low self esteem, I just didn't have that feeling of being attractive or sexy AT ALL, n no matter what or who told me different, I just wasn't feeling it, and I can't even say the lil changes made did that but you know what, why over analyze such a good thing eh?

Anyway All is going well. My attentions are spent and I LOVE IT! :x

Song of the Day!

Blue October - A Quiet Mind!

A slow strangle with feet on the floor
I've got 14 angels and we're sleeping alone
In the back of a cave, where the rest of us go
To feel normal

I call baby up. Leave me alone.
I'm in pain but I won't let you band-aid the wound
I'm mad at a stage where I can't even handle my own

Give me a quiet mind and I...
I love you
You give me a quiet mind and I...
I love you
Until the end

Give me strength to be kind... To combine
All the good things in life that were so hard to find
But I have and I won't let them go like I do with my friends

Still bearing voices... From front... From behind
They're the reasons I choose... When to live... How to die
When to cast... When to reel
When to buy... When to steal
When to fiend for the friends that taught me
Being inappropriate will

Give me a quiet mind and I...
I love you
You give me a quiet mind and I...
I love you
Till the end
]]> Thu, 09 Feb 2006 15:14:46 GMT <![CDATA[Whoa! Delay in blogging... bad jess!]]> http://blog.360.yahoo.com/blog-EQDk3bU7aLPBXrYku8aF?p=45 well this time away has been uneventful to say the least lol. although i have had some realizations smack me and we all know how those can go.. all good or all bad... well i think my realizations were constructive for me to say the least! (thanks to Rikk yet again my Hero lol for being there and letting me vent and cry or whatever lol and laughing with me as i laugh at myself U ROCK DOLL!!!)  anyway life is good kinda dull but not in a bad way.  i have been blessed enough to have good friends who i get to see or talk to kinda regularly so that makes it fun.. kids are healthy as am i, so all in all life is good for me to say the least..
 
however, i received a phone call last night, not a happy one at all, my oldest friend (as in time we have known one another) called to let me know that her cousin was murdered the night before, yeah *gasp* sad story. the guy who did it apparently was what appeared to be a friend of the victim as he was at her house visiting her, next thing the parents (an older couple both in or close to their 60s) know is the guy comes from Crystal's room smiling and says i just killed your daughter and leaves.. no good to say the least. i hear the cops got him with gun still in hand... madness i tell you and how sad is it. this family is my family and not by blood but by bond they have been here for me in so many ways... God bless them in this time of pain and pls give them the strength needed to make it through this really tough time. losing a loved one is never ever easy but in such a brutal and cold manner just makes it worse...
anyway on to a lighter note.....
 
 
song of the day... Enjoy!
 

. : If Everyone Cared - Nickelback : .


From underneath the trees, we watch the sky
Confusing stars for satellites
I never dreamed that you'd be mine
But here we are, we're here tonight

Singing Amen, I'm alive
Singing Amen, I'm alive

[CHORUS]
If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
We'd see the day when nobody died

And I'm singing

Amen I, I'm alive
Amen I, I'm alive

And in the air the fireflies
Our only light in paradise
We'll show the world they were wrong
And teach them all to sing along

Singing Amen I'm alive
Singing Amen I'm alive

[CHORUS (X2)]

And as we lie beneath the stars
We realize how small we are
If they could love like you and me
Imagine what the world could be

If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
We'd see the day when nobody died

We'd see the day, we'd see the day
When nobody died
We'd see the day, we'd see the day
When nobody died
We'd see the day when nobody died

]]> Sun, 22 Jan 2006 23:39:54 GMT <![CDATA[HaH Happy New Year!]]> http://blog.360.yahoo.com/blog-EQDk3bU7aLPBXrYku8aF?p=39 So yeah it appears its the new year! U know time flies when you're having fun, wait, is that what ya call what i've been doing? IDK! Anyway! I am finally getting back to normal! My wisdom teeth have been in for a while but on Christmas Day, they decided to begin to reak havoc on my mouth, and in came the absess from all of the shifting of my teeth.... OUFUKKINCH!! I have NEVER hurt sooo bad EVER!! I did nothing but cry and pray and brush my teeth, then I went to the ER on the 30th and got meds and stuff and now guess what... THE BIOTCH IS BACK!!!

Kids are healthy, family is doing good. As usual, life is good!

Song of the Day

Killswitch Engage -- Just Barely Breathing

Decend into hysteria
Chaos of mankind but who is listening to the voice of hatred
Tortured souls lost so completely lost
Weakened in the concept of decline, deception

Decend into hysteria
Chaos of mankind but who is listening to the voice of hatred
Tortured souls lost so completely lost
Weakened in the concept of decline, deception

Are we alive or just breathing
Don't close your eyes, see the images

Are we alive or just breathing
Don't close your eyes, see the images

The skies weep tonight, our bodies washed away
I am waiting for you, deliverance
The sun falls through the clouds
Hear my cry

Are we alive or just breathing
Don't close your eyes, see the images

Are we alive or just breathing
Don't close your eyes, see the images

The skies weep tonight, our bodies washed away
I am waiting for you, deliverance
The sun falls through the clouds
Hear my cry

I am waiting for you, for you (repeat & fade)

]]> Fri, 06 Jan 2006 08:20:43 GMT <![CDATA[Entry for December 29, 2005]]> http://blog.360.yahoo.com/blog-EQDk3bU7aLPBXrYku8aF?p=34 so yeah it's been a bit but here i am to update! i've been in bed for days and it completely blows but it will get better, i am way too optimistic to let it get worse.

 i had decided to open up a bit, but i think i have just been shown the reasons why i am soooo closed off and cold.  i can't stand to be cold and its getting lonely in this lil box im in soooo i think i just better be a bit more picky as to who i let in. bah lessons learned eh!

kids are wonderfully healthy and life is a lil dull but not in a bad way. i'd rather have a life dull with no drama than a life busy and hellish with drama!

]]> Fri, 30 Dec 2005 03:55:32 GMT <![CDATA[Just a thought or TEN!]]> http://blog.360.yahoo.com/blog-EQDk3bU7aLPBXrYku8aF?p=33 You know, as I am cleaning my apartment, I'm thinking, yeah I know fall outta your chair or something, anyway, I realize something, I have been friends with a lot of my friends for as long as I can remember, but lately I have also noticed that a lot of them had deminished contact, AS I AM NOT AT THEIR MERCY OR AT THEIR EVERY WHIM, and I am wondering WHAT THE FUCK!?!  When I was, it was like I was in high demand, but it seems since I have this new found MIND of MY OWN, that they have booked straight the fuck off, and I still just really wonder WTF?!  I am a really reasonable person, I am here when I'm needed I give my time even when I really need to be doing something else or if I just don't want to sometimes because that is what you do as a friend. There is surely a reason, I'm sure and I can't always go taking shit personal, I guess. 

So on a different note, the holidays are officially in full swing, and goodness knows I want them to be here and gone n ASAP!  Financials are tougher for me this time of year than any other and blah I hate it. I have two wonderful angels who deserve the best and it really takes a toll on me this time of year more than any cuz of the whole more is better theory, my kids have everything they could possibly need and in a lot of cases want, of course being raised by me, yes they want more lol, hell who doesn't.  Regardless, as a kid I had such nice Christmas' we had sooooo many gifts and not a year went by that we didn't get most of what we asked for.  I am raising mine alone and it's tough.  We are some wonderfully tough females. I will make it. My kids have no idea i feel the way that I do and I hope they never feel this way.  I love the holidays honestly and what they really stand for, family time, togetherness, laughs. love (MOST important), but when it comes to the hype of it all, pfft! 

Ok on to a happier note!   No matter how much it might seem in this that I am whining, I'm not.  I have a nice life, beautiful, wonderful children, and some TERRIFIC friends! I LOVE YOU ALL!!

I guess I just needed to get that off my chest, whatever it is lol or whatever it means--nothing!  Catch ya on da flip side!

<3 Jess

Song of the Day!
Artist: Three Days Grace Lyrics
Song: Take Me Under Lyrics
Now it seems I’m fading
All my dreams are not worth saving
I’ve done my share of waiting
And I’ve still got nowhere else to go
So I wait for you to
Take me all the way
Take me all the way

Seems you’re wanting me to stay
But my dreams would surely waste away
And I still have nowhere else to go
So I wait for you to
Take me all the way
Take me all the way

Push me under
Pull me farther
Take me all the way
Take me all the way

Push me under
Pull me farther
Take me all the way
Take me all the way

Now it seems you’re leaving
But we’ve only just begun
And you’ve still got nowhere else to go
So I wait for you to
Take me all the way
Take me all the way

Push me under
Pull me farther
Take me all the way
Take me all the way

Push me under
Pull me farther
Take me all the way
Take me all the way

And I’ve been waiting so long
And I’ve been waiting so long
And I’ve been waiting so long

So I wait for you to
Take me all the way

Push me under
Pull me farther
Take me all the way
Take me all the way

Push me under
Pull me farther
Take me all the way
Take me all the way

And I’ve been waiting so long
And I’ve been waiting so long
And I’ve been waiting so long

So I wait for you to
Take me all the way
Take me all the way

]]> Sun, 04 Dec 2005 21:06:28 GMT <![CDATA[Blissful yet Stressed n Mad Busy!]]> http://blog.360.yahoo.com/blog-EQDk3bU7aLPBXrYku8aF?p=31 Ok so yes things are just as awesome as ever, and lately though my stress level is high I am happy, good friends, good kids (for the most part) and I found out some things that just make it all worthwhile! I got some reassurance in some doubts i was having and I can now rest easy and not worry as I did! Christmas is just around the corner Image  though that shouldn't be a surprise..

ok i think im done rambling now hehe!

 

Song of the Day!

Far Away -- Nickelback

"Far Away"

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go

Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Hold on to me and, never let me go

 

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