For me, I havent done the weight thing yet, although it is a constant battle with me. Eating healthy is a commited lifestyle change.. One step at at ime. Not to say that Im at a wendy's or a Mcdonalds everyday.. Love the fries.. but the it doesnt love my thighs..*grins* Aaany way.. my current state of affairs. I have reenrolled myself in college again to take up a second trade. It would seem that in t his economy to survive you have to pick a field that will not fail to much. Healthcare. I was in it for a number of years, although i did take a break from it the last five. I realize that i love going to school, it it is a challenge for me at my age.. but i love to learn new things. and so far, based on my grades and hard work.. *i passed my two quizzes with and *A and *B* and passed my paper with an *A* Im proud of myself. My goal is to graduate with each section with high grades.. so that i will have a good grade point average when I leave. It may have taken me af ew years, but I realize that I am /have taken a differnt path to becoming a nurse. I have always catered to the needs of others. It may take me a few years to get there, but I am going to do it. I just have to figure out what Img going to speacalize in, and perhaps alogn the way I can FINALLY maintain a CAREER instead of just a job. Do many of you feel like that out there.. that it is jsut a*job* and not al ove of what you do? shoot at this time.. for those who have those*jobs*.. count your blessing... do you continue to hold on that grain of faith to help you move those mountains that some of us are currently dealing with?..I have also took on another level of expanding deeper into my pandor'as box.. but I will tell you about that another time.

For me, I havent done the weight thing yet, although it is a constant battle with me. Eating healthy is a commited lifestyle change.. One step at at ime. Not to say that Im at a wendy's or a Mcdonalds everyday.. Love the fries.. but the it doesnt love my thighs..*grins* Aaany way.. my current state of affairs. I have reenrolled myself in college again to take up a second trade. It would seem that in t his economy to survive you have to pick a field that will not fail to much. Healthcare. I was in it for a number of years, although i did take a break from it the last five. I realize that i love going to school, it it is a challenge for me at my age.. but i love to learn new things. and so far, based on my grades and hard work.. *i passed my two quizzes with and *A and *B* and passed my paper with an *A* Im proud of myself. My goal is to graduate with each section with high grades.. so that i will have a good grade point average when I leave. It may have taken me af ew years, but I realize that I am /have taken a differnt path to becoming a nurse. I have always catered to the needs of others. It may take me a few years to get there, but I am going to do it. I just have to figure out what Img going to speacalize in, and perhaps alogn the way I can FINALLY maintain a CAREER instead of just a job. Do many of you feel like that out there.. that it is jsut a*job* and not al ove of what you do? shoot at this time.. for those who have those*jobs*.. count your blessing... do you continue to hold on that grain of faith to help you move those mountains that some of us are currently dealing with?..I have also took on another level of expanding deeper into my pandor'as box.. but I will tell you about that another time.

to all my fellow readers and bloggers,

i was in my group today reading one of the questions that was proposed and i thought it was really good.. this is a bit of a versatile question for both men and women:

If you were out on a date with the opposite sex, and it was going good, and you knew that more than likely it was going to go to the point where u wanted to get some from that person, what would that person say, or do to make u not want to have sex? what would be your "turn off" point? i would love to hear the responses from both men and women.

and this was another question that was proposed..

most mentalk or women talk of how "good the pussy is" or how "good thier stuff is" to you what constitutes it "good pussy" or good dick"?

lets get the chat going..

keep watch.. MUAH!!!

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And you call yourself a friend, .. a true friend you can trust that will not turn on you because THEIR life is going thru a rocky, rollercoaster ride. Your are like a branch in my tree.. taking from me, what you do not deserve, to only survive.. now i cut those line... you are on your own. You say that you appreciate my help, but what have you done yet again..You cant take from me, what positive experiences, loving people and supportive friends have givin me.. a giving spirit and a kind heart. I will not waist those gifts on you.. you who are undeserving. Your life is what is is, because of your stubborness,and you inane ability to be humble. Tragedy and problems must befallyou before you realize that you cannot be free to roam and not head the rules with out consequences. I did the things i did for you because i BELIEVED that we ment something to each other..or so i thought.. Thats what i get for believing.. in you. I am done..

and so will u be.

My birthday wish: to live to see another year, to be alive to have the people in mylife, that I have in my life this year, into the next. To be bestowed blessings on me, that I pray for my family, my children, success in my health, my life, and for the lives of those who I may have affected, helped or ever held a conversation with... To be "FOREVER YOUNG" in the minds and hearts of those i love, have loved, laughed, lived or cried with..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME...!!! CHEERS.!

Once again ladies and gents, fellow writers and bloggers, the season is fast approaching and the year is coming to an end. How many of us have taken stock of the goals that have been accomplished, the unfinished books, that we have started and not finished, the new goals set for ourselves in the coming year, the changes in our personal lives(whether adding or taking away something), that New job, that we are seeking to get for our selves...People THANKSGIVING isnt just about turkey, gravy, cranberry sauce, stuffing, sweet potato pies, and un-buckling your pants because you ate to much.! When you sit across from the table of your spouse, family member, friend, comrad, or even those who are mis fortunate, think about those who didn't have the fortune to even say a prayer with somone one... SAY a prayer for them, and for those who are in an unfortunate way, and pray that as the new year comes in, and we are BLESSED TO BE ALIVE.. on the eve of the new year.. some of the things that we have gotten(although not always deserved) can be shared to those who do deserve them. Even if we give it to those ourselves.

Say a prayer for those who have fallen,and given their lives for a country in chaos and turmoil, and for the families who are missing there loved ones this thanksgiving..

I , myself although I have had a very topsy turvy year, am thankful, that I have had the fortune to have made it this far. I am thankful that I have met people who have proven to be there for me from the very beginning, and on that day, as they sit and eat and enjoy the fruits of the belly, my blessing /prayers goes out to them and there families. I have faith and believe that the new year will bring me a better one than I've had this year, and the slow changes that I have made in my life will improve in the next.

so, HOW ABOUT YOU.... have u said "THANKS" for what you have?

You see the thing with you is that, I put my entire SELF(which in all honest is something that u should have TOTALLY earned, but because I was caught up in the emotional game,(Yes ladies and gents, and blog readers I can ADMIT THAT!) it blinded me to peeling back the layers and seeing the total you... (Listen to me ladies, take ur time when it comes to getting to know someone.. and that goes for the fellas too... just because someone makes u feel good, and shows u the attention u might be missing at home, or that u dont have at home.. a word to the wise.. everything is not THE SALT OF THE EARTH.. especially when it comes to the matters of the heart..its like chess.. THE QUEEN/KING, must be protected at all times! Then and only then, when everything is in place can you say.. CHECKMATE.! by then, they will have won it.)

Now back to you.. i realize that being where we are at those times of the day.. u give me the attention because I'm there in your face, yea, sure I like it, I enjoy it.. but lets be REAL ABOUT IT... after all is said and done, and the ticket is punched, you go home to your place, and I to mine. You cant take the risks, and do me..as I have done YOU... you have proven that. and try as u might, or WANT..you arent going to go that far, and put yourself out there when it comes to just doing it for ME. I'm not giving you the time of day that you want..because FRANKLY..you dont deserve it. I want a friend in my life that makes me FEEL LIKE A REAL WOMAN.. when I am with them. You are not in a position to do that. So, with you , on a lot of levels, I've become accustomed to not having, not asking, not expecting. Its easier for me, and makes my life, a lot less complicated. Leave it alone, and let our friendship be what it is.. Intimately, Ive moved on.