"ohh... you are the reason why i'm thinking,
I don't wanna smoke these cigarettes no more...
...next time you wanna leave,
I shoulda let you do it,
now i am stuck at rehab,
and you are my disease.........."

-------------- RIHANNA ET JT "REHAB"

Yeah,
I am stuck at a stupid rehab state of mind,
i mean why shoulda be stupid and honest,
thinking it wasn't that bad at all...
thinking if i say it the way it was,
I would be left alone,
alas, i was damn wrong...

I shoulda kept my stupid mouth,
big mouth shut
and watch the drama unfold,
thinking if i let it out early,
i would get to the bottom of it,
now i am feeling angry n disappointed...

damn.... such is life!
it sucks really to be honest...
and to ask for forgiveness
and yet to be ignored like you aint worth the heck!
gosh, i hate myself right now...
just like my gal, rihanna...
i am stuck in this situation,
you r my disease...

thanks but no thanks!

-T@yo

I keep thinking of those times,
those sweet memories,
of the way you showed me
how much u can
love me.

But it s all gone now,
how i long for yesterday,
cos it seems far away...
do u remember those times,
you came to my world,
told me to spice it up
so we shared everything
and nothing to lose.

alas, I was blind,
blind to your love,
to my heart's desire
thinking it was forever,
but nothing last forever.
all those sweet fantasies,
turned into bitter nightmares,
I went to sleep angry and sad,
and you don't bother to call up
cos it doesn't matter to you,
it was over...

Remembering how u used to smile at me,
telling me you understand me,
saying sweet nothings to my ears,
just like a piece of chocolate cake,
I ate my heart's fill
and my stomach hated me for it,
but even though i was guilty
i loved eating the piece of cake...

my sweetest taboo,
that's what you are to me,
I can;t get you outta my head,
even waking up in the morning,
I envision you face,
and I know I miss you,
It's just so hard to walk away from
everything.
when everything means nothing to me...

I will always cherish the fact,
that you loved me,
even if it were for a short while,
like a piece of cake,
i indulged in you,
and I tasted the sweet love,
so sweet that it hurts my belly,
but I am glad I did!

J'taime to you only,
my LIB man....
wherever you are,
you know that I love you.

~t@yo~

Everyday is a working day,
trying to finish up
I can't do it all....

I work and work
and still the work is half-done...
what to do?

ah..... what a life?
full of sorrow and
bittersweet encounters.....

I am heartbroken.... deeply emotionally distraught!!!

I just can't imagine someone like him, playing around with me.... no, impossible...

but it is the reality...the fact, the heartbreak....and many more....

Who could have told me that i would be in a dilemma....

i thought it was a dream, no i was day-dreaming,

he is gonna call me and talk sweetly and melt my worries away....

ah! nope, he didnt even dare to.... just bluffing.....

we are friends? opps... nope

I wanted to have fun, and i did.....

so why are u complaining?

you already have someone and u were double-dating too...so,

whose fault it is anyway?

mine or yours?

sister, forget it...just one of those things

that we do to hurt eachother....

can't live with it...yet can't avoid it...

to err is human... but to forgive?

can i forgive him? should i?

of course... why wont i?

but at the end of the day.....he never asked for my apology...

sister, come on, he is a player...casanova did worse than that!!!

urgh........ i hate the aftertaste of a heartbreak...

so sombre.............

yet convincely true....

i am lost here oh Lord....

HELP ME!!!

~T@yo.....omosexy