Well I guess this is farewell to Yahoo 360. It's really a shame that they would close something that once was so good. I know it had been very slow lately but a couple of years ago it was great. I was fortunate to make very many friends here and several of you have become very close. Most of us are connected in other places already but they just don't seem as good as 360 was.

Yahoo Profiles is horrible. If this were 20 years ago it would be fine but for this day age it SUCKS. It's so primitive. I can't believe Yahoo can't come up with something better.

I am uncomfortable in other places. I share this computer and I worry about where things go. I have been always to hide my tracks with Yahoo. I'm not sure about other groups. I really haven't found one I like anyhow.

I guess that's it. Goodbye 360. It was a lot of fun.

Hugs and kisses to all my 360 friends, Brenda

I didn't go to First Event this year. My best opportunity to get out with the girls and I didn't take advantage of it this time. I really don't know why.

The week leading up to FE was a whirlwind. I couldn't think of anything else. One minute I was going and the next I wasn't. It went back and forth like that for days. It was as bad as the first year I went but that time was because I was so scared.

I always go on saturday and there were a couple of friends that I was supposed to meet but even that wasn't enough. I couldn't even decide what dress and shoes to wear. It was terrible, I was so torn.

Maybe it's because I've been there three years in a row. Sort of a "been there, done that" kind of thing. I don't know. I do know that I don't get many chances to get out as Brenda and I missed one. Oh well, only 51 weeks till next year.

I just got home and had a chance to check my messages. On IM I got a message from some black dude who wants to train me to be his whore and personal fuck toy. He also went on to tell me that he is packing heat down below. In all my years as a CD I've never been angrier. I know I like to dress as a maid and have a submissive nature but this is too much for me. I guess that this is another instance that's makes me identify with women. I HATE MEN!

P.S. I probably have as much heat down below as he does! At least I show my face on camera. He doesn't!

Yesterday was a total disaster for Brenda.

I went over to my friend Pammy's house for a dress up and photo shoot session. I had several new outfits that I hadn't tried on yet and since I hadn't dressed in quite sometime I was really looking forward to it.

I knew I was in trouble as I started to dress. My undergarments were tight, a lot tighter than they were the last time I dressed. I put on one of my older black dresses on and even it didn't feel right. I did my face (not a bad job) stepped into my new black peep-toe pumps and went out to the living room to open my packages.

Only a couple of my new outfits either fit nicely or looked good on me (one of the problems with buying online I guess) and by the time I tried everything on I was quite bummed out. I told Pammy that I really wasn't into it anymore and decided to leave. She felt really bad for me, I hope she wasn't disappointed that I had to go.

So this girl has to get back to the gym. A recent injury forced me to stop exercising but I've got to get back to doing something. And to think I was going to try to go to a local alternative club last night. What a joke that would have been. At least I like my new shoes.