I  put my feeling on here not looking to be recued but  as an outlet of my feeling  and to let people know how my relationship is going that's about it ok ..... so this is the situation some dude hit me up trying to holla telling me i am in a bad situation i need to get out . as he is getting at me there is no pic in the profile  and he is telling me how he cried when he was reading my profile .So i Kindly told him " i find it difficult to have a conversation with someone  and i do not know what they look like " am i wrong he got upset saying "peace brotha" so u think  i am going to have a convo with someone about my situation and ii do not know what u look like  what are you hiding  that is how i see things anyway what are your thought  lemme know  I love  my Man i just like to express my feelings on my blogs  not a cry for help just a release  i think we all should have outlets and this is one of my many  what are some of your outlets let me know... have a great day .... and do not forget if u have myspcae hit me on there www.myspace.com/kims_lamont have a good one.

 

Muah

So i am at work today and this is my last week. I am Leavin my Job of 6 years to venture something new and more of a challenge . and i think everyone has a friend or know someone that does not really care but tries to act like they do .So at this point i am like Gurl Fuck this Job Mode and will let anyone know.SO she is like i am gonna really miss you and i hope you have the bestof luck , i Tell this bitch "You do not mean it so do not say it i know about all the messy shit you do and say give me ten feet" she turns red and say well i was trying to be nice i reply back to her and say "it was not asked for nor needed now have a nice day " Damn it feels good to tell people how u feel and do not give a fuck how they feel . fucking cunt.... i just thought i would share that with you guys. anyway  so my week has been a whirlwind of different situations feelings and just crazy my job gave me a counter  offer to stay i still left . i been so busy  working 2 jobg i have not had much time to myself or to pay attention to the lil things that go on    a question to the group  when as a working Blk male do you take time to smell the flowers or do we just continue to work  and establish ourself because in corporate america i come to realize there is really no time for self  very lil time 5 am to 7 pm daily

some people take there birthday more serious then other people. For me It's  another day i really prefer not to have anything done   that's just me i prefer it to really  not be mentioned. i am sorry that i did not jump thru the hoops u wanted me to so you could feel good about yourself  i guess being your mental punching bag is not enough  do i think u are over reactin  " yea "  i really do if u would have told me to put some chicken up i would have  u did not mention the fact you did not want fried chicken i smothered the chicken because i thought u were tired of the fried so i was doing something different did i make u happy "no "  i was shot down not knowing really why being fussed at for no apparent reason .  in one instance  i am use to being verbally abused it has happened my whole life being made feel worthless  and so on. I try to make everone happy i try to make you happy i am not a mind reader and i am not gonna be on the battle ground knowing u have an issue so i can hear you mumble  no i cannot  go on in this situation and i am not gonna go on  in the back of my mind i feel like i bit off more then i could chew i have tried to hold it down i have tried to be  that person u wanted me to  be i cannot anymore i cannot  do it. maybe  the house is way to expensive  we are not getting what we paid for but i had to take what we could get  but i cannot do it anymore i have put everyone before myself i never by myself anything. i try to do what i can to make everyone happy but  i am not happy. you say it's about you ok it's about you  so a person forgot to tell you happy birthday all thru the day well damn  i did not know this was TGIF Fridays and that was required  shit i poped the ballons so the dogs would not kill themself but if i did not pop them u would fuss so anyway it goes it was a no when sitution  i cannot win so u know what I give up .......

As time goes by i see i am outgrowing alot of things certain friends the club and being on the net like i use too. This is one of those things i thought i would never do is get older  but i guess as we get older we evolve  away from people places and things. i see my self traveling more and reading alot more and watching home improvement shows like Hgtv. I find a chore to get up and try to go out in the club all i do is stand around and look at the same people i saw several months ago  things never change  some people do not change i have a friend that will be in the club at 60 years  old being the life  of the party ..  is there something wrong with me i sometime ask myself . and then i sit back and say "nah  this is what being an adult can be "  chillin having drinks and spending money  and on that subject   why the people that have no money look sharper then people  with money ... it's cause they spend all that money to impress anyway i just had those random thoughts  and i thought i would share them lemme know what u think ...

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