Last week, i met a lady in the bus while going to work...

she was someone weird. her style, make up , and way of talking was so weird !

She started to talk to me, and asked me about my work and study. she showed me her pregnancy test , when she knew that i'm a specialist in clinical analysis.

The pregnancy test's result was positive... i told her about it and congratulated her about the baby comming .. Then she looked to me in the eyes so deeply and said "im no-longer pregnant!"

At that moment my look toward her got changed , i really got confused, then i said "im sorry to know .. but don't worry , u have ur entire life to become pregnant again and have a dozen of kids"

She smiled a very cold smile .. Then told me that she was the one who had decided to have an abortion.

and I asked her if it was ncessary to have that operation ..and she replied saying that she hadn't been in need for the baby!

I stared at her with saying nothing ... then she smiled and said "abortion doesn't make u unpregnant, it just makes u a mother for a dead child"

I thanked God that I arrived my place and I got off the bus leaving that weird woman.

But I kept thinking about wt she said the whole day...

and I reached to a point ...

That anyone who wanted to make anything , he/she will not only create excuses for it, but also will convince him/herself about it.

And some parameters in life are thought to be stable and unchenged , but it is not true, because even morals have lots of templates, not one, according to the one who pick it.

And what is right or wrong are not the same for all people.

And ummmmmm ... There wasn't a wedding ring in that lady's finger!

Hint: plz note the image of the blog (im don'e with that silly yahoo!)

Kull sana wentum taybeen

"The month of Ramadan is the one in which the Quran was sent down, a guidance for mankind, clear proofs for the guidance, the Criterion; so whoever amongst you witnesses this month, let him fast it."

(cf. Surah al-Baqarah 2:185)

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Yesterday night , I was reading “Alakhbar” newspapers .. and as u know, our national press don’t ever lie

I’d read lots of news about sales and discounts in prices and providing our kind people with all support for the blessed month ,Ramadan , coming…

But I noticed two headlines :

First: “summer sale in clothes stores starts in cairo and Alex ..but without customers”

Second: “ summer holiday is over so early and summer resorts are almost empty ..because Ramadan is about to begin “

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In the 3 years passing , Egypt witnessed two major event on the same time ..both destroy poor Egyptians budget ..they are START OF SCHOOL SEASON & RAMADAN … Those two burdens make the Egyptian head over heels !

Me, as Alexandrian, I don’t travel a lot through Egypt's mu7afazat .. so, the only scene of Ramadan events I know , is what I’m watching right here in Alex .

This scene includes ... mosques with “tarawee7” prayers.. but on the other sides, restaurants with offers and open buffet parties .. cafes with sheesha ,clubs are delighted with songs till dawn …. Etc !

And in the last 10 days “days of freedom of fire” deserts are shown ..and clothes stores appear so attractive .

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All in all, Ramadan’s special touch to raise our souls , or to recharge the belief battery inside us becomes weak .

And to make it worse….

And this is a disaster itself, specially for Alex as a summer resort …and for those who used to pass their summer holiday bouncing on the beaches of the northern coast and Alex , watching movies in cinemas and wandering in malls whole of the nights …

I don’t think that this kind of people will let all that entertainment for prayer or for qura’an .

And girls …ohhhh tell me about them …… no comment !

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In my opinion , Ramadan in the next 10 years will show our real souls .. and take off lots of masks more than any time before ….because all summer features will be in progress along with Ramadan features …

I dunno whether I’m afraid of Ramadan itself ..or afraid of watching our weak souls which don’t have the ability to strive this false joy , for winning the eternal joy .

And I dunno what Egyptian muslims will do in Rmadan in the next few years ….FASTING or SUMMERING !!!

كل الناس مش فاضية ... حتى اللى قاعدين فى البيت

كل الناس شايلة الهم ... حتى اللى بياخدوا المصروف و مش وراهم حاجة

كل الناس محتاجين فلوس ... حتى رجال الاعمال الاغنياء

كل الناس رياضية ... حتى اللى بيكتفوا بالفرجة على الماتشات

كل الابناء اللى عندهم وجهة نظر ,مش كويسين فى عيون اباءهم ... لانهم مش بيسمعوا الكلام

زى ما كل واحد بيتكلم عن الفقراء شيوعى .. و كل واحد ملتحى يبقى شيخ .. وكل واحد بيتكلم فى السياسة يبقى وراه تنظيم

و كمان زى ما اصبح كل الناس فجأة اصحاب رسالات ... حتى الحرامية و الرقاصات

دى"over"حالات ال

مش بس بنقابلها .. لا خلاص دى اصبحت جزء من حياتنا

و دا لاسباب كتير أولا .. لاننا بندى الحاجة اكبر من حجمها

.. ودا بيبقى للتهويل ( انك توضح انكفى مأساة عشان تصعب على الناس )... او لعقدة نقص (انك تدى لنفسك اهمية مش موجودة .. ببساطة لانك مش ليك وجود فعلى فى الوسط بتاعك) .. او لمجرد الفراغ .. و دا بيحصل لما بيكون مش ورانا حاجة .. فبنخلى اى صوت بسيط فى حياتنا عبارة عن قنابل

" مرة واحد محترم قاللى " اللى بيودينا فى داهية الكلمات اللى بنستخدمها فى وصف حالتنا

.. على فكرة عنده حق تمامآ يعنى ممكن حضرتك تكون متضايق شوية صغيرة او حصل موقف قدامك نرفزك ... ساعتها هايكون انفعالك و حالتك المزاجية متوقف على تعاملك مع للموقف .. يعنى ممكن الموقف يعدى و خلاص .. و كمان ممكن تقابل واحد صاحبك تقوله "انا مخنوق و قرفان و حياتى بايظة"

و زى البنات و الولاد اللى فاضيين .. يعنى الواحد من دول بيقوم من النوم الضهر .. و بياخد مصروفه عادى ..و رايح الكلية .. ولما يقابل صاحبه يقول له "انت مش متخيل الهم الفوق دماغى" لمجرد ان صحى من النوم لقى الكومبيوتر مش شغال !!!

طيب بفرض انك مش "اوفر" .. و انك بتوصف الحالة صح .. و ان كل اللى بتوصفه صحيح .. وان حياتك جحيم .. و ان البلد بايظة ..و الاولاد فى الشوارع

.. طيب نعمل ايه !!!!؟

المشكلة اننا بنقف عند مرحلة الوصف .. سوا كان اوفر او لا .. اللى هوا نظام انا متنيل بنيلة .. تقوله طيب يا سيدى و بعدين .. يقولك معرفش بس انا متنيل بنيلة

ثانيآ ... لازم تحدد المشكلة بتاعتك صح

.. اقصد اننا لما بنبص للمشكلة بنبص بطريقة سلبية جدآ مش ايجابية

زى ابنك الفاشل .. لو بصيت صح حتلاقيه مش فاشل .. هوا بيصلى و بيدخل بطولات رياضية .. بس هواعنده مشكلة فى المذاكرة

و زى البنت اللى كل حد ما يسالها مالك .. تقول "نفسيتى بايظة و عندى

اكتئاب" .. و لو دورت فى حياتها حتلاقى بس انها بتعانى من الفراغ .. وانها بس

محتاجة تعمل حاجة تحسسها ان حياتها ليها معنى

اخيرآ "الرضا"

رجل الاعمال اللى محتاج لفلوس طول الوقت .. و الاحساس دا خانقه بجد عنده مرض .. مرض فظيع اسمه عدم الرضا .. و ان كل مشكلته انو كل مايكسب فلوس بيشغلها و مش بيفضل معاه سيولة .. او يفكر يدخل فى مشروع اكبر من قدرته المادية .. فيحس وقتها انه فقير و مسكين

حالة "عدم الرضا" بتخلينا دايما نحس ان حياتنا بكل حاجة فيها عبارة عن سلسلة من المآسى

تفكير سلبى فى كل حاجة بخليك تكره الشغل و البلد و العيال .. و يحسسك دايمآ ان فى ناحية تانية من العالم احسن .. الناحية دى فيها السعادة و حل لكل مشاكلنا ... فمجرد وجود الناحية دى فى عقلنا الباطن بيخلينا نكره الواقع ..و يحسسنا انه مأساة وان كل حاجة فيه مهما كانت حلوة.. بتكون وحشة

نفسى نرحم نفسنا

Hint 1: i wrote those words when i was sitting in "the senior house" in the club

Hint 2 :I hate that damn yahoo ..

Hint 3 : I had a meeting with some of my friends on blogspot and yahoo360 for the first time …I thought of writing about that meeting but didn’t decide yet