I have thought long and hard about what I am about to write. There seems to me a rift between what is generally what people percieve as courtesy and what people feel they deserve.

Recently I read a blog where someone I know has been on the recieving end of ill will. the fact that decency, trust, and so forth is lacking in our society. Now, It seems ironic in so many ways that this person wants something from people they arent willing to give back in return.

Case in point...I recently broke up with a girlfriend of three years...now there were things going on outside of the relationship that were very Hush Hush when it came to me...the only parties knowing the entirty of the situation were of course my ex and this other person. Dishonesty and lies, they are all part of the bigger picture. What I can say for certain is that I will never know the full extent of the situation...But, In my mind I have to ask...Why is it that women will hurt people either unwillingly or willingly and feel that they deserve respect or decency? My point being. You basicly get what you deserve.  I was hurt by the events of the past year and a half...yet, no one considers this. Yes, we are all big boys and girls...but thats just it. Dont expect respect in return for pain.  People who lie, cheat and steal from others are not worth the scum scraped from thier toilets. I look back on the past year and feel that it was all set up so that someone could have thier way. Whats funny is that I have learned that people who do the things that have been done to me usually get back what they gave...For instance lets say that my ex did lie, cheat and steal from me? Whats to stop her from doing that to others she knows. I mean what is hurting people to a person than just another day. they claim they love you but they hurt you...So ask yourself whats to stop a person from sneaking around with your boyfriend or lying to you? I believe that most woman who lie end up believing everything they say. Sometimes I think its hilarious that these people demand respect, dignity, truth, honesty, or what have you. From me, I can say that they can Kiss my ass. Its a two way street boys and girls...anyway you look at it. So, if you want these things I highly suggest that you change your ways and really look at what is important to you...living lies, or living honestly? All I want is for you to think about how you hurt people or have hurt me...What you did to contribute to the pain that I have endured, otherwise you will never learn.

After all what is a heart? what makes us human? We feel, we breathe, but we can also be broken. but if you feel that someones feelings are a tool or just another thing, you thought wrong. The scars last a life time and heal only with time....for this my scars will endure an eternity. No one knows how much Kacy meant to me. but you helped destroy something I cherished. You will never know the bigger picture. I have lost so much more than you can ever give back. A girlfriend, a grandmother and a family that I held dear to my heart. I really hope you are happy and I hope that you feel really good about your part. because, you and I, we know the entire truth. So ask yourself what you deserve, then ask yourself what I have done to deserve this. I doubt you would even consider that you are good enough to say your sorry. We all make mistakes but YOU DONT FUCK WITH PEOPLES LIVES!