At times thinks don't go the way we plan. At times we thought we choose the right person to fall in love with and ended up realizing something is not right. I wish I can explain things that I thought of sometimes but to tell u the truth i myself am confuse. How do you know if someone loves you, do you felt it, does he or she shows it? Should he or she shows it? How can you tell them if things are right or wrong? All that I ask for most of the time is just simply put to be upfront....Tell me what can make you fall in love with me....??

Love you can live with it or you can't live without it. I am simply in the middle right now. Too many things are going thru my mind and I don't know why. Something doesn't click but I can't put my finger thru it yet. Just confuse with the whole issue....SHould I made the decision or should i just let it be....???

10. "You're filled up. That'll be 600 ringgit"

9. "Maybe it's the gas fumes talking, but you're kinda hot"

8. "I forgot if this is premium or regular" (drinks) "Regular"

7. "For an extra ten bucks, I'll pump your gas without pants"

6. "Hope you don't mind - - I just put an Al-Qaeda bumper sticker on your car"

5. "Take me to Thailand and don't ask any questions"

4. "We were out of gas so I filled you up with coffee"

3. "You know, you got a bike messenger wedged in your front grill"

2. "Good luck figuring out what I did to your engine"

1. "I checked your fluids. Now you check mine"

Yesterday my area was hit hard by storm and strong wind. A couple of cars was destroyed by roof tops that came flying down. It was a like being in Florida after the hurricanes...trees and power lines came down. What struck me the most was the damage done on one of my staff cars..it was scary. But no matter what it is we were told that it might happen again today. Hopefully all will be ok later today.

There was also glasses from window that splatters across the road and gravel.  During the time of the strong wind I saw a tree near my office that hit the ground but never came off. It was spectacular..as if it was bent. Hopefully today it would not hit us again and we shall survive this sign from GOD..

On my sons 10^th birthday I wanted to write something for him on my blog so that if one day he read this he will know how much I love him and his siblings.

Oman,

When you sister was born I felt like I was the happiest man in this whole world. I saw how your mom suffers thru her process of giving birth to your sister and my whole manhood collapse. I wish at the time I can take her place and take away the suffering. I actually cried when I held your sister in my hand for the very first time. But when you were born I felt like I am the luckiest man alive, see we were told by the so call expert when your mom was 6 months pregnant that you might be having Down syndrome when you are born. I remember holding your moms hand and both of us were crying. What predicament befalls on us? But we keep our faith and move forward.

Your eyes barely open when i first had you on my arms, your skin was pale and white, with chubby cheeks and you have a lot of hair. Your name Arif was given by me for i hope that one day you will become a judge. Norman was giving to you by my friend whom i play golf with, he is a big Greg Norman (a great golfer from Australia) fan so he wanted to be apart of our family, hence we gave him the honor to name you. Zulkifar was given by your mom for you are our first son

Son,

I understand at times you are sad that your mom and I had our divorce but I just want you to know that when we had you it was out of love. We will always love you and will always be proud of you. Always remember that no matter how hard it is you will always have god on your side, God will never leave you. If you ever fall in love and the girl hurt you, and I know how bad it felt, never ever take it on the next girl. Respect and love the opposite sex for who they are and be kind to them.

When you feel down and you feel that the whole world is against you just remember you had it toughest when your mom and I went thru our divorce and you came out okay. Though your grandfather is a rich man, I had it tough, there was times that your sister and I was eating noodles for a week when your mom leaves us. But we came out okay and stronger. It is tough being a father you have more stuff then I had. I know at times I am not a good father but just know one thing son, that I would give my life for you at a flick of a finger. And one day when I’m gone just know that life does go on and that we are after all here for a reason, To do god’s will. I love you son, always have and always will. Happy birthday my son, may god bless you always

Papa.