Hi Ya All,

  Well, no baby yet :((.  Spence is gone again:(, got him for about 3 months :((.  He is in Officer's Prep School in Cali (San Diego.)  So I hope to see him in 3 months.  We sold our house in NC, so I am homeless right now......LOL :(.  I am in MO with my sis-in-law by Whiteman AF Base.  Her and her hubby are so amazing, opening their house to me and taking me in.  I am so thankful for that.  I couldn't handle being by myself again.  Well,  I miss Spence so badly.  I just want him here for more than a few months.  Yet after this I get him for 4 years.  He's not deployable due to going to college to become an officer.  I am SO PROUD of HIM :D!!!!!  I LOVE YOU SPENCE!!!!!!!MUWAH!!!!!!!!!!!!  The pic above was just taken, isn't my hubby so FRICKEN HOTT!!!!!!????????!!!!!!!!

  Well Ya All,

  I haven't been on here in forever, my hubby has taken up a lot of my time, and so it should be like that.(YAY!!!)   We are trying to start our family now, sooooooo.................IT'S BABY MAKING TIME!!!!!!!!!  So if I am not on here a lot, that's why, luv U ALL!!!!!!

Hi Ya All,

  I go to pick my hubby up this Friday!!!!!!!  OMG, I am so excited!!!  Yet one down side, my period was 6 days late, which means I will have the end of it when he's homeWAAAHAAAAAA!!!!!  I am bleeding, crampy and my big boobs hurt, not to mention I am the biggest bitch ever and I have the whole house to clean.............UGH!!!!  This morning he called me and I am so mad at myself, I kinda got mad at him and then he made me cry, damn PERIOD, CUT OUT MY OVARIES(SPELLING).   I CAN'T BELIEVE I WAS AN ASS ON THE PHONE, HE WAS PISSED THAT I HAVE MY PERIOD AND I WAS MOODY.  I CRIED, ( MY POOR HUBBY).  MY EMOTIONS ARE ALL MESSED UP!!!!!!UGH!!!!!!!!

To a Good Friend (you know who you are),

  Well, I must say that was very insightful but not all intirely correct for one thing when I was growing up, my parents where very stricked I was really only allowed to go to school, home, church and do the house work and all that, so it's not that I didn't want a bf it was just that I had no place to meet anyone (school doesn't count I was such a nerdy tomboy and didn't care what people thought of me (some things never change LOL)(side note: I'm a woman, so I can say that and u have no choice but to agree ;)))  Then I was in college, we weren't even allowed to talk to the guys (yet that never stopped me, I was always going to the deans office for some reason, it was like a military college.)  I was on my last year and then I was joining the Marine Corps as an Officer, that was my dream, the Corps, it's in my blood.  Yet during my last year I got deathly sick, rushed to the hospital and almosted died, here I had cancer and didn't know it and the tummor burst, I was in really bad shape, the doctors even had my parents getting ready to plan my funeral(they didn't tell me that though. LOL)  So needless to say my career was wrecked even before it began.  I had stage 3 aggressive cancer, and they told me if chemo didn't work the first time, I'd die from cancer.  Chemo is hell, knowing u r going into the hospital and with each drop of those drugs, u get weaker and sicker until u throw up and your muscles stop working right and all that.  Well, after a year of that I got my colostimy reversed(so I could be normal again, thank GOD, I was 20 when all this first happened so being 21 and dealing with all this was crazy) and found out that the cancer came back, I didn't wanna see myself needing people to take care of me, so knowing what they said to me the first time, I was gonna kill myself so, I wouldn't have to deal with seeing myself die like that, and I DID NOT wanna go through chemo again.  Well, that day I met my hubby online, and we talked about everything, and I heard this voice in my head say,  "That's the man your going to marry."  Well to make a long story short, I did chemo again, he would drive 600 miles on his 96s' just to be with me, stay up all night while I was throwing up just to comfort me, knowing that he had to be on base early in the morning so 11 months later from the day we met we got married and he left right away for his 3rd tour in Iraq, no honeymoon or anything, he just left.  I can honestly say, I would go through chemo a million times over if I could just have him home, DEPLOYMENTS are by far the HARDEST thing I have ever endured, I CAN HONESTLY SAY IF IT WASN'T FOR MY HUSBAND, I WOULDN'T BE HERE TODAY HE IS DEFINATLY MY ALL.  I also have been cancer free for a year and a 1/2 .  Now Spence wants to come home and start our family, I got the go from my doctors, so OH BOY (or girl for that matter LOL.)                           

  My buddies nicknamed me Sgt, they told me if anyone could handle the Corps and is ment to be in, it's me (I think they said that just because I can out drink them all (sad but true.)) 

I LOVE YOU SPENCE!!!!!!!!MUWAH!!!!!!!!!!!!I MISS YOU SO BADLY!!!!!!!!!!!!