What matters to me the most is my family and friends.
In a previous blog, I wrote why I hated a former boyfriend. In this blog Im going to write about how I love my new boyfriend. This is a healing for my soul, a healing for my heart. To close that chapter in my life....
I love you because your sweet
I love you because your honest
I love you because your caring
I love you because your sexy
I love you because your God fearing
I love you in so many ways....
I love the way you make me feel
I love the way you mmmmmmmmm
I love the way you touch me
I love the way you hold me
I love the way you call me baby
I love the way you say my name
I love the way you provide for me when I dont have
I love the way you have faith in me
I love the way trust me
George, I love you in so many ways. I love you because you love me, and I feel your love. I hope you know how much that I love you.
George and I have been together for a month and a half now. It has been a wonderful month and a half. We have had our share of ups and downs. As most relationships are, when you first starting out your going to have some problems. But that is to be expected because we are still in the getting to know each other phase. But we know each other very well, I can finish his thoughts just like he can finish mine. I love him so much. He is so wonderful, he is all that I imagined, and he treats me so good. We laugh and talk about everything. We have such a good time together. I love being in his presence. He makes me smile, laugh, scream, moan, scratch his back up, and anything else I can imagine. I feel like I have known him all of my life. He is my other half. He is the icing on my cake. I already know that we are going to be together for a lifetime. We are planning out our future together. I am so excited about being with and where our love for each other is going to take us. Just like this picture thats how our relationship is.
Its amazing how you think that after you put all of your heart, mind, and soul in a relationship that it will work. Then to have all of it broken, left in despair and disbelief. And just when you think that you will never love again, the Lord steps in, and say yes you will. The Lord is so good to me. I was down and out, lonely and depressed. But He gave me someone to show me that love is patient, kind, understanding, and that it enduring. That person is the love of my life George Banks. Inspite of all of my flaws, he still loves me. He is helping me to learn what love is again, how to trust someone, how to be as one in a relationship. In my last relationship, I was treated terribly(there is a blog about that). We have so much in common. The most important thing that we have in common is our love for the Lord and our church. That makes the love we have for each other stronger. I know this is a powerful relationship, because the devil is attacking us from every angle, but our love for each other and the Lord helps us through every situation. We encourage each other, we support each other. He is very talented. I cannot stop talking about our love for each other it is so strong and sincere. I'm going to close now because I can go on and on. But George Banks is the love of my life, and I love you very much.
I hate you for all of these reasons:
I hate you for the tears you made me cry
I hate you for the nights I stayed up night after night wondering where you are
I hate you for cheating on me in my house
I hate you for letting your "homeboi" move into the second bedroom
I hate you for lying to me
I hate you for never loving me
I hate you for telling me a lie to my face
I hate you for wrecking my car
I hate you for lying next to me night after night, making me think that everything was ok
I hate you for playing with my emotions
I hate you for making me look like a fool
I hate you for playing me
I hate you for every dime of mine you spent
I hate you for not coming to pick me ujp from work on time
I hate you for making me wait four hours before you came to pick me up
I hate you for making me sleep on the step
I hate you for being so carefree about everything you did to me
I hate you for making me think everything was all my fault
I hate you for not allowing me to be happy even after we broke up
I hate you for every guy you ran away
I hate you for slapping me
I hate you for not taking me or my feelings into consideration
I hate you for not appreciating anything that I did for you
I hate you for turning your back on me over and over again
I hate you for making me hate myself
I hate you so much and you know who you are. I will never run your name in the ground, or make you look bad. You did that all on your own. You can blame me for everything, but you cant always blame me for your mistakes. I hate you so much, but I love you, only as a friend nothing more. Your right we can never be together again. It took us being apart for me to realize that.