Hiya guys and gals.

its me again..old rantalot. hee heee.I am suppose to be watching the tv news programme but although its on, I havent seen any of it. I can hear it though. Magic eh.

I usually put the tv on ready for the Emmerdale programme and Coronation street, so the musical introduction brings it to my attention when I am on this infernal machine of mine. If I dont, I miss the start of them.

I am slowly mastering the art of this hearing aid..its difficult to put in your own ear without a mirror...but even with a mirror, its hard because of the side view.My brain hasnt yet deciphered all the noises and put them into categories for me. I still hear all the tiny noises and cant yet make out why I hear so much, so unclear and mixed up . The little noises are so loud and the tv is getting drowned out . I hope my brain gets busy soon and sorts it all out for me. I didnt know how hard it would be to sort it all out.

The Emmerdale music is on. I will be back in an hour.. I wont enter this until I have finished it at eight pm. just an hour from now. its seven pm and I still have more to write before entering it.

Adverts are on, I am sticking a little bit more while I can. I have been soaked today..again...as it was chucking down when I went for the bus to town.I had an opticians appointment and there is a change in my eyesight. I am keeping the same frames but the lenses need to be changed. I told the optician that I am away for the five days so he said if I can manage without my glasses for 24 hours, he will rush the order through for me. So now I have to go and pick them up tomorrow afternoon after half past two.

On Wednesday, I go to the hospital for a pressing appointment ( girls will know ) and Thursday is also out for me. My mum and I are going to be visiting during the afternoon and in the evening, I think my nephews will be coming through from Manchester to visit my mum and I. If it isnt Thursday, they will come on Friday instead. I am awaiting a message to say which day they will be here. I got a message from one of the boys on Sunday, asking if they can come to see us. I messaged back to say Yes Please and still wait for an answer... the lads are very busy working etc.

These two nephews.. they are in their twenties and the last time we saw them was January of last year.... which wasnt a social visit. It was when we said goodbye to my dad, and we were too upset to speak happily to one another.

I dont really know if they come onto the computer regularly, but we have been forwarned. well, I have, I dont think I will say anything to my mum until the lads knock on the door to my house. It will be a pleasant surprise for her to see the two lads. I love doing this type of thing for mum.

A couple of weeks ago, if you remember, we went off for the weekend trip to the lake district. Sarah lives there.. I made plans secretly to meet up with her for the three hours. My mum loved seeing her grand-daughter and great grand-daughter.

I got a bit of a surprise myself at the weekend. My sister rang up and she said we could go visit her in a month or so for a longish weekend. We dont really see a lot of Kathryn, although she came through from Manchester when I had the stroke last year, to visit me in the hospital. I get the occasional phone call when she isnt working. Kath is a carer/warden at an old peoples place. Its a scheme, not a home.. the oldies actually look after themselves in small flats, based in a large building with a community room and laundry. kath , as warden, arranges social nights and trips sometimes. The oldies have a visit every day and they are on the "string" so they can call for help should they need it.

Kath recently got a two bedroomed house. Her previous place was one of the flats int he building but she recently told us she was looking for another job..but had to get a house of her own first. The flat goes with the job.I think you will know what I mean... the word escapes me. Its like a tied cottage.. where the staff of an estate live in the cottages but if they move jobs, their home is gone too.

Now she has the house so she may be looking for another job. I will find out sooner or later. Kath is the type of person who tells us things when she is ready to tell. Like most of us really.

Me ? I am far too open and tell people whatever is going on in my life without them ever having to ask me. I keep other folks secrets but not my own.Isnt that weird ?

Well, I am back again, with a pint of tea and my smokes in front of me.I know its naughty to smoke so please forgive me... I have been smoking for many years and its hard to stop. I HAVE cut down quite a bit though.

I went outside to lock my gate a moment ago. I got a big surprise when I found it was actually dry out there... it stopped raining a few hours back. My back door is open but I hadnt noticed it had stopped. So much for our Brtitish Summertime. Its almost non existant this year, as always. The weather forecast is always wrong.... no-one told the actual weather what its supposed to be doing. I have been drowned by sunshine and burnt by the rain.Lol.

What a load of twaddle these blogs of mine turn out to be. When I start them, I dont have any idea what I shall write about...then once I start, I forget to stop. Nothing seems to happen, that anyone else would be remotely interested in... then each word turns out to be a paragraph. Before I know it, I have finished one.

Oh well. the second Corrie will be coming on in two minutes or so. For now, I will say tara and send you all a big hug and my love. Take care folks. Love you, Gill x♥x♥

As the title says, good morning to everyone who comes to my page.

Last night, the weatherman said the day was going to be dull and damp....with some heavy rain. He got the first part right...there isnt any sunshine yet but, ooh. its rather chilly this morning. I took myself out to the centre for a few items and I was nithered. ( cold ). I got home, plonked the kettle on to boil for my pint of tea and switched on the computer to boot it up while the tea was being made. So here I am, writing the blog.

IF anyone wants to know how I put the heart in the title bar.. I pressed the ALT button and the number 3 on the keypad..at the same time. And there is was. ♥♥♥

I didnt realise how noisy this little world of ours was. I got my hearing aid on Thursday and was rather shocked to hear properly, for the first time in about ten years. It feels a little bit strange right now but I am fascinated with all the noises in my own kitchen...every movement the gerbils make, the clock ticking away, each tiny rustle of a newspaper or magazine page,the kettle sounds like a waterfall noise and so on.The grandchildrenof my neighbours were playing in their nana`s garden and their voices were so loud. Its wonderful.

On Wednesday, I realised that I hadnt gotten any personal mail for about three weeks. The only thing that seems to come through my letterbox are bills etc. I started thinking.... ( steady Gill , its too early for that ) I wondered if it was the same for my mumsie, I know our Sarah writes to her monthly but who else would write to my mum...I see her from Thursday to Sunday, I am on the phone every day of the week. But you know, a phone call cannot be read over and over again like a letter can be.

So I picked up a pen and a pad of paper and WROTE A LETTER to my mumsie. The letter itself was filled with a lot of twaddle but I did tell her how much I looked forward to being with her for those few days every week. I also told her how much I loved her.I addressed the envelope and stamped it, so it would arrive the Friday morning at my house. I wanted to see her reaction when she got her personal but barmy letter.She said I was daft when she got it.

Michelle and my eldest granddaughter already know this....but I have never told anyone on here before. 12 months ago, we three all put some money together and we paid for a LADYSHIP for my mum. It isnt a legal thing, like a knighthood, by the way, but it does mean my mum can be called LADY GLORIA HOLT. It was really only done to try and cheer her up because it wasnt very far from Christmas. Lady G was feeling down in the dumpies, it was at that time, almost a year since my dad left us to go live with his Heavenly Father and as you can imagine, she was always upset and depressed.

My mumsie married my popsicle when she was eighteen years old. She spent the rest of her life with popsicle... work it out. 18 times 4 =72 and she is now 75. Thats a quarter of her life with her own parents and just over 3/4 of her life with my dada.No wonder she got upset.

Anyway , to get myself back to the Ladyship thingy. We bought the rights. As I said before, it isnt a legal thing. There is an estate in Scotland where its like forests and there is a lot of wildlife there.Theres a river running alongside..and if mumsie wanted to do so, she has the right to fish in the river too. Her " ownership " is one square foot of land , if she wanted to go tenting in the area, she, and the family , have to right to do so. All monies raised by this place, is used to maintain the forest as a forest.

She was pleased as punch and she had a lovely smile on her face when we "presented her" with the Ladyship. It was sure worth the £35 it had cost us three. You cannot put a price on a smile like she had. The two girls gave me £11 each and I covered the rest.

I am looking forward to the first of September. My mum and I are going away to Blackpool for five days. Blackpool has the lights on at that time and we booked specially for them. We want to take advantage of visiting Blackpool zoo while we are there. Its going to be great.

I saw the lights once before but it was only on a day trip. You set off early in the morning, spend the day in Blackpool and then when everyone is back on the coach, the driver drives along the sea front and the customers get to see the lights.. its very full of traffic along the seafront and he can only drive slowly. You get to see the lights but once past, thats it. Head for home again. Because we will be staying in an hotel , we arent stuck with simply driving along and then heading home. We can stop when WE want to, and go along the front as many times as we want to. More time to actually enjoy the lights.They are different every year.

When I started this blog, I didnt think I had very much to say.Now look at the size of my twaddle. The picture at the blog start..its my mumsie at the age of eighteen. She was and still is a beautiful woman.

I am now going to do other things on the network. I shall say tara for now. love n hugs to everyone , Gill xx

I have just been wandering through everyones blog but not all do an update. I was on the friends page, and all the avatars that go with your names has disappeared for now.

Also I saw on Peters page, that there was a number 7 in the top left had side of the screen. Does anyone know if something has been updated with yahoo... if it has, then there is still a few glitches to sort out. I saw from peoples comments boxes where the writer had said their comments werent being posted as they should do. Nor will it let folk accept a friends offer.

I was beginning to think it was my computer but now I think it might be Yahoo thats going wrong somewhere along the way. I hope they get that sorted... I still dont get alerts on time...they come in days and sometimes weeks later. Thats what made me speak of the alert from Must Be recently.

Getting off this programme for now. Later peeps, love ya all Gill x

Evening all. As the title line says, I am a little bit cross today and a bit upset too. I was tidying one of my cages and sorting some of the straw. What did I find in there ??? One of my little gerbils has died and was as stiff as a board. Now I am all sulking. I cant say I have a favourite gerbil out of all of them, I love them all equally. It happens sooner or later but I get upset when it happens. This one had a tail sore and it had fallen off a while ago and I had nursed her back to health, but tail less.

I was watching my coronation street and it was time for the Bill to come on. Then a female voice announced it had been taken off. For what reason ? Silly little men who like to chase a rather large ball round a football field. Why on earth do they advertise a programme and then go and change the plans at last minute. I HATE football with every bone of my body. Its not fair.

So now you can see why I am feeling at odds with myself tonight. I think I should go to bed and stay there till morning, dont you? If I had anything about me, I could get some chores done but who wants to do chores at five past eight in the evening. I most certainly dont. Apart from the feeding of my babies each night and making cups of tea for myself, thats about my limit at night.

My computer is starting ot run very slow too. I lose pages I am seeking. it gets timed out. PAUL... come and rescue me soon. lolol

So.. I am a bit impatient tonight. I am going to bed for a read very soon. I have to go for the hearing aid tomorrow so I do need to be up, out to the shop and back again ready to go to Pauls house. He is going to drop me off at the hearing centre, then go get mum and make their way back for me. I hope it doesnt take too long at the surgery ? centre.. I dont know if they run to time or if there is a delay , like there is at a hospital appointment. You know what they can be like.. your appt is for two p,m and an hour and a half later you are still sitting there like a stuffed dummy.

You go make enquiries from the reception " what time am I going to see the doctor please "

"Sorry but doctor is running late and there is a delay of one and a half hours" she says, as if we were too thick to realise there was a delay after sitting on our butt for the past hour and a half. Grrhh.

I am a bit cross so I say goodnight for now. I dont want this to turn into a moanaday for me. After all it IS a Wednesday. I think I will try and take a look at your blogs and see what you have all been up to. If this machine freezes up one more time , then its going to learn how to fly.

Be good peeps, love you always. Gill xx