And my day has been soo shitty until now . I wanted to go out of town just to get away . Actually started to leave and everything . Got about 10 miles out , and thought to myself , why am I doing this . So I turned around and came back home . I knew where I was going , but I wasn't sure what I would see once I got there , and I guess , I just wasn't ready to find out . I really think I need a vacation . Something to put my life back on track . Maybe one day of great sex would do it . . .LOL......hell who knows .

i really think i need to go to the beach , but i sure get tired of doing everything alone . I had a close freind call me last night and wanted to know if I wanted to go tothe fair with them . I need some fun , so I think I will go . I will just watch my money that's all . The fair is a really cool place , just very expensive . I love to go at night with all of the lights .

Well , the day is wasting away . I have already painted this morning but it is so hot , the paint is very thin and drying very fast . The ideal temp is about 70 with low humidity when you are painting metal by a roller .

Ta Ta fr now Ya'all . I will be back on later tonight , unless I decide to go and get in to some trouble . . . .I have been so good lately , I make myself sick . . . . .LOL

Have you ever taken a walk in the rain

Trying to keep from going in sane

looking for any thing to take away the pain

Hoping to feel happy again

you know what's so beautiful about walking in the rain?

You can cry , and no one knows it , but you .