Here we are Tuesday morning, almost time for 360 to say good bye. I have looked for a few sites and have not found one that tickles my fancy yet. Send me what you have found and I will check them out

So last night I spent some time on the phone with someone I am meeting for the roommate thing. he is a few years older than me, divorced, no kids but two Pom's that he treats like them LOL. He seems like a pretty down to earth person and we are meeting this evening. One other I had been talking to did not pan out. I am pretty liberal with information. I would rather get it all out there than have a huge mistake happen. I spend most of my time with Disneyland, only being at home maybe 6 days a month?? BUt I do come home every morning and get ready foor work. Now things may change a bit because after summer time Daniel will go back into day care. But this person was not okay with idea of me coming in at 6 or 6:30 every morning to get dressed for work and get Daniel dressed. Her opinion, that what I am doing is scaring my son. HELLLOOOOOOOO....Daniel idolizes Disneyland and loves him to death. Anyway, I have the one tonight and then one on Thursday.

Last night I took Daniel and Disneylan's son to his brothers and we watched wrestling. Dinsyeland went to his dad's for a nice visit and Bubba had the house to himself for video gaming. LOL. I did not want to get up this morning but crazy enough, even running late....got to work on time...YES.

Horoscope...hmmmmmm

The great thing about learning to forgive others is that it means you also know how to forgive yourself. Ditto for learning how to feel compassion and demonstrate kindness for all those around you. They're tough lessons to learn, but some of the most rewarding. It's also one of those lessons that the universe will find a way to teach you -- over and over again -- until you really manage to make it a part of your daily life.

I am so going to miss everyone.

Could have used another day this weekend. Took the kids swimming Saturday after many pain staking hours looking for a bathing suit. I am glad that only comes once a year. Father's day was small, funds are tight, but the kids did get Disneyland some new jeans and t-shirts. He went to six flags with his two children and had a wonderful time. Daniel and I wen to the movies and watched Night at the Museum. Now he wants to go to a museam. Boy is he going to be disappointed. LOL

So tonight I will get back on my search. I did not feel it this weekend. Between stress and the sun I had a spliting headache Saturday night and did nto want to do much. I actually went to sleep real early. But tonight iw ill try again and then I promised Disneyland's son we would watch the wrestling match tonight since it is on regular TV and not pay per view. Anyway, everyone have a good day, gotta run.

I have a few irritations tagging along side me this morning. LOL

Still doing my search. Went to Clay’s last night. While it was okay and he was also, the area is furnished and that he does not want to change. I guess he is looking for someone who has nothing and I may have been through some tough times but I do still have a few things left. The other I had left the phone number here so I did not get to talk to, I will do that this evening. Most people my age that are looking for roommates do not want children. Well, I have two and that will not change so I will keep trudging along.

So Angel and I have talked and I know she understands how upset I have been, how much some things have bothered me and that I have a desire to relocate regardless of the current situations outcome.

Other irritations. Well, I guess it is at myself. For allowing certain things to continue to happen that should not. Giving a lot of leeway to a friend that I feel at this point is not taking advantage of it. She has been riding back and forth to work with me for gosh, almost three years. Her husband lost his job but has been and still is from what she told me getting unemployment. I get $20 once a month for gas. Now let’s see, that is $240.00 a year for her to go back and forth to work. Hell yeah, I wish someone would let me pay $240.00 a year. Hell I spend that in gas in a month. So now I am back in a hard spot because I do care about her. I also am in the precarious position of the fact that I know he is unemployed and…they are part of Disneyland’s family. But I think that it is getting almost to the ridiculous point.

Goodness…well, atleast it is Friday. That is a good thing. RIGHT????? LOL. So I looked at my horoscope this morning and it fits where I am today…

You've often wondered about what might happen to the ones you love if you decided to stop taking care of them. Would they sink, swim or find someone else to care for them -- in which case, you'd never be able to live with the guilt. Regardless, it's just about time for you to do both yourself. Give them a few referral numbers, a pep talk, make your exit and see what happens.

So I guess this is a time for second chances for me. I will be moving soon. The thought began as a necessity and has now festered into a need. There is a difference you know LOL. The roommate search has just started and is a bit on the crazy side. As far as friends go, I do not have any that are not already stabilized where they are or already have a roommate. So this will entail appointments and interviews. The first one yesterday was bad. Not because it was a bad location or a bad person, I just felt bad when I left. The person was a widower and really wanted company. Very sweet man. But I am at Disneyland’s most of the time so good company I may not make. The second, I did not even get out of my car LOL. The dogs in front yard were enough to turn me away. So today starts again. I have numerous emails to look at. I had to laugh at the fact that the ones that are from males include a picture of themselves and not the property. So far the ones from females have not been too great. But hey, the process just started and it should be interesting to say the least.

On my drive to work this morning I decided that no matter what happens, I know I am not happy where I am. I love my girl; she has been a friend since she was 16 years old, pregnant and showed up at a wedding reception with a friend who was not a good guy. Anyway, we have known each other a long long time. She has her ways I have mine and even though they can survive in the same location it is at a high cost.

So like I said the conversation about parting was necessary at that time, it may change, who knows, but now, I really just want to make a change in my life for the better. It may not be better at first. It will be tight and Daniel will probably not be too happy for just a bit, but that is all a part of life, he is young and he will adjust.

Wish me luck…I will need it.