well I feel better now thank God. I cant thank enough all the people that showed concern over me in the last few days, you know who you are , the ones with hearts. Anyway dont even know who reads this stuff as far as my blog goes. Maybe just the ones need some help falling asleep, I have to share my sister Myspace page...

http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=104...

could there be any more contrast ha ha OMG shes funny but i love her. I mean wow look at her page and look at mine .geez yawn. I gotta do it too, maybe make me feel younger

I have just realized at this moment that for the first time in my life I am truly and uterly alone. At the same time I have hit the lowest point in my life, I have cried for hours and hours and am wonder how the hell I will get through this night. I have no one I can call, No one that can come, if this is a test I dont know if I can win.