March 25, 2008

My dearest friend birthday, Za...

Happy Birthday... Wish you happy, always...

Love you Za...

Zi

March 10, 2008

Waiting for dhuhur prayer….

Feel weak because of this long-term flu… two weeks already… hahaha… honestly I need an ample rest, have been so busy with the accreditation… so this morning after having my breakfast at around 7am, I continued my sleeping beauty, hehehe… just woke up at around noon, took a bath and now waiting for dhuhur before having a meeting with my friend.

Gonna tell you a little bit about Andrea Hirata’s books: Laskar Pelangi, Sang Pemimpi and Edensor. I told a bit to my dear friend in Pakistan yesterday. She seems so desperate with the situation there, hoping to go out of the country, she even said that if she cannot go out she would commit suicide… scary actually… I just can say be strong and there is always solution for any problems… easy to say, a cliché, maybe…

Don’t have much time at this moment coz dhuhur is coming. Just one thing that really touched me from the Novel of Sang Pemimpi “The Dreamer” that I read during my journey from Jakarta to Jogjakarta by train alone, he said that reality and pessimism have a positive correlation. When he looked at the reality, he saw that it was impossible to reach his dreams and he became pessimistic, he was really down, didn’t care about his study and free fall… from the third rank to 72^nd at his school… One thing that made him wake up is his father… an old guy who still feels proud of him. And his cousin and best friend who always with him said, what we can do just keep dreaming! Our dreams will give up spirit and motivation! Do our best in everything we do, that’s all we can do!!

I was crying when I read that part. I remember my father, actually. Yes, I don’t want to make my father disappointed, I want him to be proud of me. I know it’s still long to reach my dreams… but I know am trying to head into it…. Hopefully, one day it will come true!!

Time to pray and then work again…

My messy little room, 12:23

CT

Saturday….. in Bogor. It’s raining outside… Too cold, even my VCO got frozen.

Yesterday, after attending a short seminar in Jakarta Stock Exchange, had a nice lunch with the friends of my colleague in the Pacific Place, just in front of JSE. We ate at a Chinese restaurant, quite nice although expensive… Well, not absolutely expensive for those people… we were in line for a while to be seated. A different phenomenon with the average people, when we can see they buy food from the street vendors and eat in the pavement, I wonder if they do enjoy the food or the pollution…

They five of us enjoyed the food, talked about the stock market, sub-prime, etc and one thing that touched me is about a writer named Andrea Hirata. Once I saw his book entitled Laskar Pelangi in a book store, but didn’t pay attention to it. A friend told us about the novel, one of his sayings, in the uncertainties in this world, actually there is a line that connected alls, one thing happened in a part of this world, will definitely affect the other side of this world.

When I got home, asked a friend if she has Laskar Pelangi. Too bad that she lost that book, but she has another book entitled Sang Pemimpi, the second book of his tetralogy. Am so curious about the writer, so the first part that I read was about the writer. One thing that woke me up… He said that he is an academic and backpacker that his dream is to live in Kye Gompa, the highest village in Himalaya. I remember Aruna… I was planning to go to Nepal and the climb Himalaya, well not till the peak, I know I don’t have that power, hehehe… Then my plan with Degi for having the trip by train from Beijing to Mongolia, Rusia and then enter the Europe. Well, at least I took the train from Beijing to Ulan Bator with Chen Nan, and had an amazing winter in Mongolia or maybe a stupidity, hahaha… I missed my adventures… Seems that I have been stuck in this unknown world, don’t know where am heading for… Still have no direction at this time… or maybe am still enjoying my vacation… I know that I cannot go back to the past, although I miss Tokyo and all of my friends there…

So now… I woke up and will start my new life with the adventures… Will start from Indonesia… Had a work for an NGO and traveled to some parts of the country… It was really tiring, but also exciting… Gonna tell you next time, especially for my roommates Za and Nina… I think your idea for a blog is really good. We can keep in touch through our blogs, so will try to always update this blog.

Have to prepare for my trip to Yogyakarta tonight…

Love,

Zi

Hello From Bogor

Nodai…. where I spent almost one third of my life. After completing my undergraduate, I continued to Master Course and then Doctoral Course. In the same school, same laboratory, same dormitory and same room… And of course, same sensei… Our beloved 藤本先生. My first year in Nodai… it was really hard. I (and also all 留学生 from姉妹校) had to learn Japanese language first, felt like a stupid… But by studying hard, finally we (all 留学生) could master the language and we started to enjoy our lives in Nodai. I do miss Nodai now…

I’m very sad and feel so sorry that I cannot attend the reunion… I would like to say a few words at this opportunity. To all of my 先生 in 生物企業情報学科, thank you very much for teaching us and always being there for us, especially for my academic advisor, 藤本先生, for being so patient. You are like a father for us 先生. I’ve tried to study hard when I was in Nodai, except for Nagano sensei’s subject in our first year, I forgot the name of the subject. I really didn’t understand. On the 試験日, we also had test for Japanese language, so I didn’t study 長野先生の授業 at all. We had two problems, the first one was a calculation and the second one was explanation about something, I was trying to write something. That time I sat between Degi and a Korean girl, I forgot her name. I didn’t mean to cheat, I don’t like cheating… But Degi and also the Korean girl gave me their papers. I said No, it’s okay with me, but they insisted… So I wrote something from their papers… It was my first and last time cheating when I was in Nodai. I passed the exam, but I know that I didn’t deserve it. 長野先生、本当にすみませんでした。

I had too much memory in Nodai. My roommates Za and Nina, miss you so much. To all of 一期生、all of my friends, 林、市村、マサト、おおくら、川崎、菅野、ﾃﾞｷﾞ、みんな、元気かい？Maybe some of you have good jobs and good lives already. But I just started my life, I entered a new phase… a new world that full of uncertainty. At school we have teachers who always teach us, guide us, protect us, and give us advices, but after we finish we should stand on our own feet. Sometimes I felt tired and asking myself what am looking for… what am heading for… When you were despair or felt hopeless, when you were down, when you felt that you didn’t know what to do anymore… Just remember you still have friends, 先生, and Nodai. Thank you, 先生, Thank you, Za, Thank you, Nina, Thank you, Degi, Thank you, all of my friends. Remember our hard time when we were in Nodai and believe that we can do it, we can get our dreams! Thank you, Nodai, Thank you, 生物企業情報、for giving me chances to spend one third of my life, for giving me good 先生達, for giving me good friends. Thank you, 先生. I will try to get my dreams! 頑張りましょう！

Lots of love….

シティ・ジャロ or Zi (someone who miss you all)

P.S. Hope we can meet some where… some day…

My dear friends,

I miss you all... I do miss you....

The first and second weeks in Bogor were such a mess for me... Am in my own country but feel so lonely... a part of my life left in Tokyo... 9 years... around one third of my life!!! I was crying when I heard Japanese songs...

Well, it's a new phase of my life... still dont know where it is heading for.... I'll try to do my best...
Thanks a lot for always there when I was down and need a company, although it is through YM, I am really happy when I chat with you. I do hope you can visit Bogor one day!!

Thanks for everything...

Love,
CT