Well everybody you probably think I am dead or something.  I had no clue it had been this long since I had written anything in my blog.  I have been more up to date on my myspace blog I guess.  My mind is leaving me these days.  I guess I will give you the run down of the past 3 or 4 months since I have written.

Zachary is doing okay.  He is very up and down and I worry about him everyday and just do the best I can do within my abilities.  I do homeschool him and it has been a challenge with his problems but I feel like it was one of the best decisions I have made in a long time.  Zach loves police cars and fire trucks and anything that has to do with fire and rescue.  He loves Virginia Tech Football and wants to be a football player when he grows up.  I hope that is possible for him.

I was on my own for a little while.  I met someone special but due to some religious beliefs we were unable to be with each other on a personal level but we are great friends and I hope it stays that way.  He has made me see how much I need Christ in my life and my need to find a church for Zachary and I.  So, right now, I am going it alone for awhile....and then we will see what comes of the future and what path God leads me down.

My parents are doing okay.  Goodyear is on strike now so there is a lot of stress on my dads part because they are trying to build the tire and get production up and get their jobs done as well.  It has taken a toll on the family but we will get through it as we always do.  My moms health is very up and down & it is a challenge for all of us.  But I just trust that God won't give me more than my body and heart can handle and just take it day by day around here.

We have two new additions to the family, Cassie & Callie.  They are two lab mixes that Zachary got for him birthday which was October, 9th.  He turned 7 years old.  He love to play with them.  They love to chew everything.....so there is some tension sometimes.  They are almost potty trained so ya'll know what that means....lol.....I am cleaning up pee and doodoo almost everyday.....hehe.  Laugh it up now because I am determined to get these dogs TRAINED.....LOL.

Well I need to go now Zach wants to play a game.  I will try to do better with my blogs.  Talk to ya'll later.

Well everybody it's Tuesday....woo hoo!!  Not a very eventful day I suppose but not a bad day either.  I volunteered today.  Didn't feel very productive today but I just enjoy getting out of the house and going there.  I was totally suprised today when I went in and found out a friend of mine that works there put in their two week notice.  Thats too bad he was starting to grow on me....he he.  I do have to say this about him though.  I found a person or friend in him that I didn't really know was there.  I say this because when he started working there I was skeptical of him.  Which is very unlike me.  I am usually the last person to rush judgement on someone.  But he came across as this player and flirtatious type guy and what a turn off that can be....you know?  Well to get on with it.  The more I talked to him and learned who his true person was.....I was very suprised.  And I actually found a great deal of respect for him and the person he desires to be.  And ladies....let me just say.....the man can sing a song that literally makes your heart drop down to the pit of your stomach.  Its amazing!  You know I was thinking today.....that has always been a dream of mine.  That the man I was meant to be with would sing a song to me at my wedding.....wouldn't that be amazing?  Well enough about him....he he.  If he reads this he will be smiling and laughing that I actually wrote this much about him....lol.  But I do wish him well in all his ventures and I hope we will remain friends....he is good people everybody!

Zachary is doing better.  Well I should say he is maintaining the best he can or knows how.  Its tough but it will just take him some time to adjust.  I try to do whatever needs to be done to help him.  Sometimes it just seems like I can't ever do anything right for him.  It breaks my heart.  I love him so much and just want to be the best I can be for him and I just hope that is what I am doing. 

Well I love everybody and I hope everybody has a wonderful rest of the week.  Kisses to everybody!!!

Jen

We must come together and help our children succeed no matter what their fall backs may be. 

Zachary is struggling so bad right now not being in school.  The transition is really taking its toll on me so quite honestly I can't even imagine how hard it must be for him.  Its hard being a parent and seeing your child suffer in ways you not only don't have any control over but there just simply isn't anything you can do to help them. 

I love him so much....I can't imagine my life without him.  He has molded me into the person I am today and that means more than anything else in this world. 

Just thought I would share......I'm smiling for the first time this week.  Whew thought it was never going to feel better.  I guess the last couple of blogs I just needed to vent my frustrations and I really appreciate those who offered to be there.  Just when you think no one cares.....they really do. 

Well I love everybody and hope everyone has a good rest of the week.  I read this guys blog tonight and the way he wrote about his feelings and emtions was great....I will have to share with you in my next blog.

This has probably been the shittiest week I have had in a long time.  In one week I have managed to mess up a very good friendship.  Screwed up really bad and got screwed over by a friend of mine.  My mom is in the hospital and doing okay.  Zachary is going thru a huge transition with being out of school and all.  So it is just a really tough time for me right now.

It is weeks like these that I really wish I could get the hell out of this damn town.  I hate small towns and always have.  To many know too much about you and stay in your damn business all the damn time. 

If things don't get better and lighten up....that is exactly what the hell I am going to do. 

I am just going to start keeping to my damn self and not doing shit and that way nobody can say a fucking thing to me.