Well here i am again. Just wanted to vent some. Me and my husband seperated last November. I messed up the money pretty bad, and the bills were piled up, retuned checks, things like that. So it was bad. Anyway we seperated, when we married he had 3 small children of his own, i had 2.

Well in November I moved in with my mom, she has tryed her best to support me and my oldest daughter for these past monthes. My oldest daughter is hanicaped. When i was kicked out it was hard on all of us, his kids took it real hard, i think i took it the hardest. This is still hard, My husband who i loved with all my heart, threw me out, said lots of hurtfull things. My love for him kinda just died. Theres no other way to explain it. But I love his children so very much. With me just being a step-mom, of course i have no rights, but i'm afraid that when i have him seved with divorce papers, i will no longer be able to see them or talk to them. The chance of that happening just kills me to the bone. I'm not for sure about much right now, seems like things went down hill kinda fast, but I have to think the goddess, because i'm still here.

Anyway, was a great day, sunny warm. She has been blessing me with small things, beautiful days, clear starry nights, and the blooms of flowers, the birds singing.

Goddess Blessings to all

monamorsel

It has been a long time sinse I posted here on my page. I don't know where to begin.

Well I have been off line for awhile, so I;m just getting back to things. I have moved back home to Glen Allen, just my self and my daughter. My husband decided he no longer wanted to be together anymore. So I made the big move. I does feel good to be home. The one plus is that my number 1 best bud lives just a few short steps down the hill from me.

This has been a hard split, he has three children that I have raised, and now its no longer my home are my kids. That has been the hardest part for me dealing with the kids not wanting me in there lives anymore. This is a very sad time for me, have been in and out of the hospital, dealing with my nerves and depresstion.

How do some people turn love off so easely, to be able to one day say " thats it, its over ", then its all done. I feel very alone and scared of were I will end up after all is said and done.

I'm afraid the goddess Hectae has taken me for a ride with this new path she wants me to walk. I feel it will be a very hard and lonle walk. But walk I will, because my goddess has asked it of me. I don't know why she chose to lead me here, but hopefully when I find out it will all make sense, and I will know why I had to go through all this pain and hurt.

now that I live on my own again, my oldest Daughter lives with me again. Its wonderful to be with her all the time . My other daughter, who is in the army she comes home to, and were all together its great. My army child has informed me I'm going to be a grandma, so thats great news also.

I guess I need to stop for today, write more soon.

i give all praise to Hectae for the blessings she has layed on me with perfect love and perfect trust Blessed Be !!

Goddess Blessings to all

Merry Meet,

Sorry haven't been keeping up with writing. Have had lots of stuff going on.My uncle has been very sick, prayers would be welcome, healing energy to. I had some surgery and I am doing better, now I think i'm going to have to have it againe, so we will see.

My daughter joined the army, she seems to be getting along pretty good. She says its not as hard as she thought it would be. I am very proud of her for finaly doing something to better herself, but I'm asking the goddess every day to please , please, for her not to be sent to Iraq.

The pagan picnic was held here and it was lots of fun, a little on the hot side. We were able to sit in on a few work shops with the Author Ellen Dugan. So that was very nice.

I was able to take a weekend and spend it with my very best friend ever, we had a blast, hanging out in the pool, and laying around the house. We just had a good tim.

Well I guess thats all for now, life goes on and the wheel keeps turning, Goddess Blessings to all.

monamorsel

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Merry meet,

Haven't sent out a blog in awhile , so here's whats been happening in my part of the world.

We have been kinda busy, with the kids and last day of school, it is always such a hectic time around here. The kids all did well and made the A-B honor role, all year. We are very proud of them.

My husband and I went to Branson last weekend, it is crazy down there. Its like hillbilly Las Vegas, we did have fun, just getting away for a weekend, but .... its crazy down there.

I am looking forward to the pagan picnic, it will be coming soon, hopefuly if I get my 2rd degree final I can be initiated. I have my robe ready and my stole, got my patch sewn on , then I will have my 2nd degree patch and can do formal ritual within the temple.

We are planning a picnic in the park saturday, just for fresh air and some fun time. we will do a small ritual while we are there, so I look forward to that. We don't get outside to much for ritual, so this saturday will be a very small event.

well bright blessings to all, until later.

monamorsel

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