I don't really hate it.

Contrary to me acting like I vomit at the thought of love, that is so not who I am. LOL....

I am a creature made to love. I just need the person who was made to love me to materialize. I've recanted most of my missed love mishaps and such. I've messed up. The guy's messed up. It just wasn't meant to be. But I am a tender hearted person, who is smitten by love and the feeling that go with it because, if you've ever been there, love isn't just one thing. It's a multiple of things bullshit and good shit. That's just the way it is. I've accepted that.

Thing is my Valentine's Day history is nothing more than me feeling low and lousy because I've never had a special anything on that day. Except for my mom, who use to buy me and my brother a little something for the occasion. I still have at least one of the items. But beyond that, I never had a boyfriend on Valentine's Day. Not in high school, hell not even in middle school. Not after. Not now. And if I ever did have a boyfriend, like in the case of White Mike, I may as well not even had one. Or my baby daddy for that fact. And now that I think about it...The crack weasel...who went to the casino a couple of days before and won like 200 something dollars, bought me this beautiful necklace. It had ivory(like) elephants and jade(like) beads. Beautiful. But it broke. He said it broke because I was stressing out and if I stressed out while wearing it, it would break. He was full of shit.

At any rate....because I had sucky Valentine's memories, my first internet friend, Kyle set me up with my yahoo email account and I've been on it forever now. He gave me my email and ID which is...you guessed it (if you didn't already know) valent1ne0. He said that he'd be my valentine and that proved it. Sweetest kid. I wonder what he's up to these days? So now you know why I won't give up my yahoo account. I'm a sentimental person.

At any rate, I decided that I can't let not having a significant other rule the reason why I don't celebrate Valentine's. I just don't celebrate in the traditional way. But I figure if I'm showing affection to my kids and friends, isn't that what it's all about? Then I guess that's as traditional as it gets.

Thank you for your time. Have a wonderful rest of the day.

P.S. It would be nice however to get laid. lmao...(like YOU didn't know that was coming! HA!)

I'm not always the life

of the party, but I'm

guaranteed to make you

smile.

That's what I do.

Give you a reason to say

I'm wild all while keeping

a smile on your face.

Nothing in this world could

take the place of happiness.

I love and long to keep my

friends in uplifted spirits

which is why I think of

and say crazy shit,

because I know I'm

guaranteed to keep you

in stitiches.

I love my friends till

death do us part and

it would tear at the heart

of me to know that I've hurt

anyone of them or if they

would choose to go and not

be my friend.

My life wouldn't end, but it

would hurt like hell.

Who else could I tell my

dark secrets to?

But never mind that. Once

I'm your friend, I'm in your life,

for life. I'll be singing in

your wedding, be good friends

with your husband or wife and

have them laughing and smiling

too. Just know that I would never

want to lose you.

One more thing again,

always remember my friend:

I Love You.