this is my certified pass time. some people think it's a waste cause instead of doing something valuable and meaningful, i get my piece of bliss through wishful thinkings. masarap mag-imagine lalo na pag walang ginagawa sa office... what's great about daydreaming??? i make myself widely awake for hours! saving me from being caught drooling over my office table or browsing into shopping sites or walking around like a runway model. di ko pa naman dinadalasan maglalalakad baka kasi mapagdiskatahan ako ni 'amo' at bigyan ng sangkatutak na trabaho.

i love the beach! i'd like to beach hop from Philippines' finest beaches... boracay, palawan, camiguin, pagudpud, siargao... to the jawdropping carribean sea... barbados, antigua, bahamas, haiti! spending weekends with my family or friends lazying around, enjoying a tropical drink, talking until sundown and laughing through the wee hours. if it's one of those so called intimate trips, the beach is one of my ultimate romatic date. parang ung mga napapanuod sa mga comercials na mega habulan pa with matching getup tpos sunkissed skin. oo corny pero umamin ka naisip mo din un.

i'd like to drive a convertible car... roadtrip till i get tired of driving or until wala ng pangasolina. having my hair blown aback, wearing my fave sunglasses, singing Overdrive ung kanta ng disbanded Eraserheads! endless chicha with friends in the backseat or a lover beside me... ieeeww lover talaga eh! sounds old school... ero for sure real good times!

i'd like to become a jetsetter by profession. ung tipong i'll be in Paris doing a documentary telling viewers how pretty the place is. Lunch on Sydney and coffee in Guatemala... where the coffee beans from Starbucks were labeled so susundan ko un how it's made until mailagay sa market package. tpos daan ako sa night safari ng Africa, dining with wild animals ang drama. then watch the sun rise in Tahiti. the only thing i will complain is the limited time i got to shop at each country i visited.

Try living in palace with all the luxuries it can offer. long dining table that requires a rotating center where food are placed and a phone for each of anyone who's dining with me. a hallway that leads to a number of rooms. ung tipong bawat room may iba't ibang theme, may amusement park... wave pool and lap pool and hot spring and big jaccuzi... sports center na may rock climbing at cycling area... a closet that may be mistaken as a mall pero siyempre everything that's in there are free... a home theatre with 3D feature that can accomodate 10 people with cozy seats na good as bunk beds... an ice cream store where all flavors and delicious toppings are infinitely arranged in rows... mcdonalds na pwede kong madala friends and family ko like nung Ritchie Rich 1994 movie at pwede akong magpaburger to anyone who says 'pacheeseburger ka nman!' gaya ng bagong sa comercial Pinas. hay... mapapasabi ka ng 'this is the layp!'

Be on amazing-race-ish trip with my friends... ung tipong travel around Pinas in 30 days. all expense paid pero may unting requirement. that is bring a memorabilla, show picture and eat well known delicacy in the place we've been in. Documenting every little thing we sensed! tpos after ng Pinas next stop Asia!

o kitams 7:36am na... i get through the shift just by daydreaming! unting minutes na lang pauwi and sleep to dream all that i've daydreamed. it's great to daydream minsan it's like helping me get by with a little help of imagination. hay bukas ulit!

i had an odd interview kanina... odd kasi eto ung tinatawag ni mammy alma na getting to know session sa newbie ng house who's obviously me! oh well chempre medyo uncomfortable dahil you're put on spotlight at may overlapping questions pa galing kay manong jess. it's hard revealing yourself to someone though confident nako to share dahil past na yon so most of my answers brief but true. eto some of questions that i remembered ero ung mga answers ko elaborate ko na lang here kase when i answered the questions para akong litong nakadroga dahil wala pang tulog. confidential na ung mga side comments strictly for housemates na lang un!

nagka-casino ka na naman? anu-anong nisusubscribe mo? dinadownload? ilang gig ba yan? anu-anong mga nakasave dyan?
di, wala kong sinusubscribe may nisasave kase kong mga movies, 2GB, larong bata lang po nilalaro ko, puzzles and words walang porn subscription or anupaman. Merun kasi kong sangkatutak na MP3s at Pictures na iniingatan ni Casey (ang aking pink vaio laftaf oo may pangalan siya, wak na kumontra) yoko naman ma-addict sa role playing games kasi napapanaginipan ko tapos nagigising akong stressed dahil di ako makapanalo.

nagkaboypren ka na? ilan? yung serious lang ha? ilang taon ka nung una? so 4 years kau nung last boypren mo?
oo, mga tatlo, may dalawang bf akong tumagal ng 4years, almost 2years ung last relationship ko. aktuali dapat 4 BFs yan kaso di ko ni-count ung isa since di naman worth to be serious un, on and off lang kame pero ung relationship na un is a great adventure. daming first na nangyari... kung anong first? TMTH. yung last ex ko we're still communicating prang MU-ish... daming possibilities ero i'm keeping my options open (haha as if merung options eh noh?) ero singlehood muna.

*TMTH - too much to handle

ilan kaung magkakapatid? pang ilan ka? puro kayo babae?
3 panganay ako, pwede ng babae kame lahat pa-gurl kase ung middle though parang may identity crisis pa siya, 12 pa lng ung bunso magti-13 this July. anak ako sa first boypren ng mom ko, so malaki agwat namen ng sumunod sken mga 10 years din. pero the good part is she found the man who loves her no matter what even if she have me.

naglayas ka? ganun din mom mo? baket?
maagang nagliwaliw mom ko ero i know that's something she's not proud of kaya as much as possible ayaw niyang magaya ako sa kanya. alam kong i disappointed her when i walked away after college pero di ko ginaya footsteps nia, i graduated and became responsible for myself. she may not told me her story why she ran away before for the reason na di niya yun pinagmamalaki, naintindihan ko un now and i don't judge her for what she did instead i love her for taking responsibility for her actions and dealing with the consequences. di ko masasabing naging sukatan un ng pagiging mabait niyang anak sa mga grannies ko but i commend her for the courage that she unknowingly taught me that is "to stand on what i believe in and take responsibilities for my actions". alam niya sa sarili niyang di man siya katalinuhan pero she wants me to be the best that i can be. chempre intelligence is incurred yun ang principle ko, i finished school at di man niya sabihin i know that she's proud of what i have become. i somehow agree with the saying "kung anong ginawa mo sa magulang mo, yun din gagawin ng mga anak mo sayo" for the thought of parehas kaming naglayas pero at the end of the day things do change. keeping in mind what you wanna become, you can change your future through what you're doing now unless you wanna commit the same previously made mistakes. so much for elaboration ero lulubusin ko na... i'm afraid na ulitin ng magiging anak ko ung cycle na 'to pero one thing's for sure i'll help her not to.

find bliss in a pouch of candy
come alive with strike of colors
see tiny things with big thoughts