Have you ever been accused of something you didn't do? Something that cuts to the core of your character? Something that wrenched your very gut because you knew you had been greatly misunderstood? Especially because the person accusing you would not even give you a chance to respond, a chance to defend, a chance to apologize for the misunderstanding? I'm not a liar, but I've been accused of such, and the worst part is that I can't explain how grossly I was misunderstood. This person will always see me as a liar, and that cuts to the very core. Worst of all, if I do try to explain, I will be banned from a site I have come to love, a place where I have several friends, and a community that I thoroughly enjoy. So, my options seem to be try to explain myself, which I want to do so badly that I can barely stand it, only to inevitably be misunderstood and banned, or to sit back and take being called a liar, and by my silence allow them to think they are right. There is no winning in this situation, at least not for me, because either way my very character is attacked. Being banned shows me as a rebel, which I am not, and being silent brands me as a liar forever in the eyes of some, which I am definitely not either. How does one choose between two wrong labels? Which is better, a liar or a rebel? I see no good coming from either label, and I honestly don't know what to do. Do I go on, doing my normal posting, knowing that a group of people no longer see me as honest, and doubt everything I say, or do I try to make them understand what I meant originally, which could end well, but most likely will end in my being labeled a rebel and rule breaker? Silence convicts me of things I didn't do, and speaking opens a whole other can of worms. It shouldn't matter so much, but it does nonetheless. I need to just get over it, I know. Having a small group of people think that I'm a liar is not the worst thing that can happen, and there are far worse things to be accused of. I'm sure I'm not the only person to ever be misunderstood and unable to defend themselves. Christ himself was misunderstood, and he didn't try to fight the wrongfulness of his accusers. I need to let it go, and in the future make sure my words are more carefully chosen, especially in the world of the internet where people can't see my face, and hear my heart coming through in my words. I need to forgive them for calling me a liar, and I need to move on. It's not hurting them, its only hurting me if I hold on to it. I release my pain, giving it to God, and I release the feelings against my accusers. I know that they are only doing their job, keeping a place that I love safe for everyone to enjoy. Its better for them to err on the side of caution, and if I want to continue to be a part of the community, I need to submit to their authority.

For those of you who are still reading, (since I know I have so many readers ) thanks for sticking with me as I worked through my distress. If you stopped reading, I'm not gonna thank you for anything, since you aren't here anymore . And to everyone who stumbles across this rambling of my thoughts, it is my prayer that in the midst of whatever might be going on in your life, that you may find true peace in the only PEACEGIVER, and that in Him you find love, joy, and comfort. May He richly bless your life in ways you haven't even imagined and may He remind you constantly of how special you are because of Whose you are! And, if you haven't heard it today, let me be the first to tell you that YOU ARE LOVED! For every reader, my prayer is this: May God reveal Himself to you this day in a way never seen before. May you see His hand at work in the circumstances of your life. May His love be evident to you in new and exciting ways. May you be renewed by His promises, and may you be unable to fathom your existence without His love in your life.