Funny how a lonely day, can make a person say:
What good is my life
Funny how a breaking heart, can make me start to say:
What good is my life
Funny how I often seem, to think I'll find never another dream
In my life
Till I look around and see, this great big world is part of me
And my life
This is my life
Today, tomorrow, love will come and find me
But that's the way that I was born to be
This is me
This is me

This is my life
And I don't give a damn for lost emotions
I've such a lot of love I've got to give
Let me live
Let me live

Sometime when I feel afraid, I think of what a mess I've made

Of my life
Crying over my mistakes, forgetting all the breaks I've had
In my life
I was put on earth to be, a part of this great world is me
And my life
Guess I'll just add up the score, and count the things I'm grateful for
In my life
This Is my life
Today, tomorrow, love will come and find me
But that's the way that I was born to be
This is me
This is me

This is my life
And I don't give a damn for lost emotions
I've such a lot of love I've got to give
Let me live
Let me live

This is my life
This is my life
This is my life

Now I dont want to start any Blasphemous Rumours BUt I think that Life has a sick sense of humour...

What is it with life and living with me, I just cant sit still for minute. Maybe if I pray hard enough... it will all be more acceptable... or go away.

Now I dont want to start any Blasphemous Rumours BUt I think that Life has a sick sense of humour...

*sigh* how do you pray without a feeling of guilt when Society tells you that God hates you for who you are...no no ... WHAT you are.  Society. the basis of self acceptance... HA!

Now I dont want to start any Blasphemous Rumours BUt I think that Life has a sick sense of humour...

WHY IS IT JUST WHEN YOU HAVE SO MUCH TO GIVE IN LIFE , YOU HAVE SO LITTLE TO GIVE IT TO?

Now I dont want to start any Blasphemous Rumours BUt I think that Life has a sick sense of humour...

Perhaps Love is like a resting place a shelter from the storm? It exists to give you Comfort, its there to keep you warm. hahah wtf are they smoking? Love is such a jaded place... so diabolical some may even say that stalkings just another way of saying ...I love you.

Now I dont want to start any Blasphemous Rumours BUt I think that Life has a sick sense of humour...

Oh who knows what lies beneath the surface in a human being, who knows how easy people turn on you to save their own pride, how many I do's end in I dont give a FUCK???

Now I dont want to start any Blasphemous Rumours BUt I think that Life has a sick sense of humour...

Maybe when Im older, Ill fully understand... Old age??? oh theres a joke. Proof that life has a sick sense of humour, when you finally get to enjoy what you know , your time is up. YOUR CLOCK HAS STOPPED AND NO ONES RUNG YOUR BELL IN A VERY LONG TIME.

Now I dont want to start any Blasphemous Rumours BUt I think that Life has a sick sense of humour...

Perhaps when I die , Ill finally understand... yeah thats it, now ure dead, ur life is over and the shit has hit the fan... but the fans off and the shits going nowhere,except into the ground. Ashes to ashes , dust to dust, if heaven doesnt want you , the devil MUST!

To be or not to be ... THAT is the question , well if you not to be, you have ZIPPO to stress you out. If you Be . God help you mate... LIFE IS SUCH A BITCH...

Now I dont want to start any Blasphemous Rumours BUt I think that Life has a sick sense of humour...AND WHEN I DIE, I EXPECT TO FIND IT LAUGHING.

 

oh FUCKIT... HAVE ANOTHER CHOCOLATE CK` !!!

NO NO NO NO

RAGE is not a gay posterboy or Superhero. If he is or does feel the way I feel right now, Then maybe he deserves his name.

I have discovered that people... are NOT who they want you to believe they are alot of the time. It is a recurring lesson and perhaps I SHOULD LEARN IT ALREADY so it can just GO AWAY and I can begin to fill my life with people who LOVE ME and whom I love back.

WHO GIVES YOU THE FUCKEN RIGHT TO HURT SUMONES LIFE? I DONT EVEN HAVE THE RIGHT TO HURT MY OWN LIFE.

I decided today, everyone is back at square one and I have put my 3D glasses on and I am going to look at EVERY relationship I have and analyse it to death if I must, but YOU WILL NOT HURT ME AGAIN. No matter who you are.

GET IT?

so if you want to hurt me and my life.. just go away ...Im having a F%C&K YOU DAY!

 

Since first hearing this song it struck me profoundly as the bravest song Ive ever heard. No one has written a song for as far back as I can recall that may reflect the feelings a kid has when their parents split or disagree or when a child grows up in a home filled with pain and disappointment.  Thank You Kelly Clarkson... I know the song has had a riveting effect on me and to many who actually have taken the time to listen and understand it.

"Because Of You"

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,

You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out

I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake 
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you 
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die

I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you 
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you