"For a long time it seemed to me that life was about to begin- real life. but there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life. this perspective has helped me see there is no way to happiness. happiness is the way. so treasure every moment you have and rmemebr that time waits for noone."

-souza

Facebook is an amazing thing, and yes, Deanna, almost addictive. I recently signed up and have been catching up with alot of people I had lost touch with over the years.

There are alot of pictures, too. Amazing. Some, haven't chnaged one bit. Look just the same as they did 20 years ago (yes, it has been almost that long!!) - maybe a laugh line or two, but I would definatly recognize them on the street.

Others, no way would I recognize them in a million years!!

I wonder why that is???

Yahoo figured out what was wrong with my web page! Yay! So now I can put more updates and pics and random nonsense about the happenings of me and mine!

Just in case we all needed a refresher, and because I have also just connected with some old friends on facebook, I have made my original page the start of it all again. So, Ken and Kim and Lynn and Melony can reminisce and some can get to know me all over again - or remember why they forgot me to begin with?

April 14, 2009

UGH!!! Although they said they did - it still is not wanting to cooperate. I will keep trying....

But I really have a hard time with that question as an answer here.

I have a brother. Not many know that - of course, now everyone does. I don't talk about him for very good reasons that I feel very strongly about. I will not go into them, only to say he has done some VERY VERY bad things that he will most definitely go straight to hell for, if I am lucky. I think. This is where my quandary is.

I am not sure if my older sister C. believes these things happened, or if she feels some sort of family obligation to her brother that I could not feel to someone who has done the terrible things he has, which is why I choose to think she doesn't believe it all happened.

I truly believe what comes around goes around. He has always had a heart condition and in reading my sister C.'s myspace blog's I have discovered that he is on a heart transplant list for the second time.

So, is this his coming around? I wonder.

I don't know what Jesus would do in my situation. He was a much better person than me. I think I will stick with what I know, and that is not feeling sorry and that he is getting what is coming to him - and there is still a firey future in store.

That is my cold heartedness for the New Year.