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I'm a regular guy trying to be a regular gal!!
- Entry for November 19, 2008
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Today I bought my very first real dress!!!
I bought it at Target. found a nice one my size and took it to the sales counter. The girl just rang it up and said thank you. No one shouted CROSSDRESSER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
No one even noticed but now I have a dress and a little more confidence.
Wednesday November 19, 2008 - 01:36pm (CST) Permanent Link | 0 Comments - Entry for November 04, 2008
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Hi, It's been awhile since my last entry. Let me see what's happening.
I've started posting on crossdressers.com. Lot's of great girls there, I really like it. I also started therapy with a new therapist who I really like.
I don't have any grand goals for therapy, I just want to feel better.
I've been dressing a whole lot more and I really like it. :)
Stacey
Tuesday November 4, 2008 - 03:00pm (CST) Permanent Link | 1 Comment - Entry for September 15, 2008
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What a wonderful day!!!!!
Today I got all dressed up in a nice outfit tan skirt, red blouse, hose and heels with a nice necklace, and went for a long drive. I had a hat and sunglasses on and I went around the nearby lake. It took about forty minutes of driving in broad daylight. I started out nervous but soon I had a big smile as I drove down a major highway and down some country roads. I felt so good. Stacey really needs some time out and not just locked up in the house.
I just wish I had somewhere I could go en femme.
Monday September 15, 2008 - 10:14am (CDT) Permanent Link | 3 Comments - Entry for August 18, 2008
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ANOTHER DAY
Well it's been a month since my last blog and a quick check downstais confirms that despite my best wishes I am still a male. I have a plan where that every month I would try something new to help me come out. Unfortunatly this month I haven't done anything.
I hate to dissapoint my faithfull readers. If you have any suggestions I would love to here them. Last month my friend Lacey arraged a shopping spree at Dress Barn for Tri-ess. I wish I could have gone. I even thought about some excuses I could give my wife. But I chickened out as usual.
Today my wife is gone so I can spend the day as stacey. I have a nice outfit on and I'm wearing a new bra my wife just bought. I really like it. Of course everything it lifts up is fake but I can always dream. :)
I've been amazed by how many people there are out there that are just like me. same feelings and having the same fears. I guess I'm lucky to live in an age where we can get together online and learn we are not alone.
Stacey
Monday August 18, 2008 - 03:56pm (CDT) Permanent Link | 2 Comments - Entry for July 08, 2008
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To Be or Not To Be
Last week I saw myself as Stacey for the first time. It was so wonderful. I felt so comfortable and I didn't feel self-councious at all. Only three people saw me but I wasn't afraid. This was me.
I've been thinking about the barriers I've put in my life. I love my wife so much and she really loves me. I can't imagine hurting her or leaving her. I also have a really good job I don't want to lose.
But
I know that if my family and my job were to suddenly go away I would imeadiatly start buying female clothes. I would also find a transgender friendly doctor and begin hormore treatment. I would work to get myself to pass as a woman as soon as possible and start living fulltime as a woman. Finally I would start planning to have SRS.
This is what I think about so often. I want to put being a male behind and start being a woman. It's what I've always wanted.
I really think that one day I will be on my death bed thinking "I should have done it".
I'm so scared, I don't know what to do. I guess I'll just carry on as before.
Stacey
Tuesday July 8, 2008 - 09:11am (CDT) Permanent Link | 2 Comments
