The call came Thursday evening. A member from my old church wanted to check in with me and see how I have been doing. During the conversation she mentioned about Jenny and that she was not doing so well battling the cancer. Such a lovely woman of 3 college boys and a strong Christian. I put her on my "Things to do list". I told myself to call her house on Saturday when my youngest would be napping and encourage her to hang in there.

This Saturday I woke up with all my "things to do" on my mind. Go to the gym, put the young one down, call Jenny, go grocery shopping...etc.

THE CALL: 9:30am Saturday, January 7th

"Hi, this is Mike from church. We've activated the calling tree and wanted with sad news to let you know that Jenny past away last night."

I sat on my bed quietly, salty tears streaking down my face like shooting stars. I was going to call her this afternoon....I was going to call her-

It's Friday, Thank you God. I tried to get up but just could not. I didn't stay up to late, but had no umphh in me to get out of bed. Once I was in the shower I was good to go.

I looked out my window this morning and each time the mountains look so beautiful. It's the same mountain range, but yet She strikes a majestic look every mourning. I do miss the beach and sand very much but I don't ever remember talking about how lovely the ocean looked every weekend...I just hooked my leash on and went boogie boarding!

To all my family and friends who gander at my page--- have a blessed day and find something small...ever so small that you can thank God for. Hasta la vista

NRG

I had unusual dreams about spiders last night. Everytime I told myself to wake up out of the dream, I would drift off and go right back in it. Very crazy.

There was this movie on PBS last night called Yesterday. It was about a woman and her husband who contracted AIDS while living in South Africa. I missed the beginning part but caught most of the movie. Very compelling and good directing. I was filled with rage, anger, happiness and laughter all during the movie. Actually, I started to cry at one point....that's been a long time since I did that while watching a movie. But it felt good.

Today will be a busy-body day like it usually is. My fingers turned white again on my left hand-- if I forget my gloves one more time!!

I hope you all have a good day. From the words of my girl Mary J. Blige--- "if a door closes, just remember that the one next door may be open"....meaning: opportunities come all the time-- just look for them.

Agape-

NRG

Stressful morning with the girls. Who told my little one that it was ok to have both feet in one pair of socks! WHY I outa!!

Still in some pain but choosing to ignore it. Surgeon's assistant yesterday said I needed to come in for another shot. Forget that...they have genie pigged on me for way to long. I need relief from all this pain in my leg and ready to get back to training. It's my way of life...and so far, this life of running has been slow. Turtle slow...

Going to be a good stewart at my job and get back to work. My fingers now work...I had a horrible case of Reynaud's and could not even bend two of my fingers. If you don't know what it is...look it up and view photos---yuckkk

Enjoy the day you have been given.

NRG