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Suzanne

June 25th, 2007

What happened to us?

It all started toward the end of the year last year. My husband Richard quit his job to start a new one with great promises. He even refinanced our home for the 3rd time to buy a trailer for his semi for the company. But after he had quit, the new company said that it won't start until after Christmas. So we waited.

January came and still the work hadn't started. We used up the last of our savings for the mortgage which became outragous in price... our martgage is now 2200 a month. We waited another couple of weeks with promises that it will start any day. We ended up putting our boat and rv up for sale, but in the meanwhile now this is February I started back to work at Walgreens. My oldest son got his income tax return back and we had to borrow from him to make the mortgage. We then finally sold both the boat and RV but lost money in the long run. We had paid 3500 for the boat and never had a chance to use it, and 2,000 for the RV, and we ended up selling them both for 2400 dollars enough to make another month mortgage payment.

In March my husband decided to go with this company that does Liquidations over the phone, so he made phone calls for 7 days a week from morning to night, 3 months and no money. He ended up selling his Semi and giving back the trailer, now the Semi he sold made two months payments, now we have nothing to sell. We ended up fighting, as he kept trying with this phone Liquidation thing, and my small checks was the only thing coming in.

Everyone says they think that Richard had a nervous breakdown, and I totally agree. For years throughout our marriage he had no problem finding work, but he never stuck with it more than 5 years. And now being 60 years old, he is finding out how hard it is to find work at his age. I know he feels like he has let his family down. But he seems to be putting the full blame on me.

Two weeks ago, when I got up from working the night before, he told me that he wanted to talk to me. Now I thought maybe he had a solution or something. We are now two months behind on our house payment. But to my surprise he said that he has had enough! That he has put up with me for 15 years and he can't take it anymore! I said, "so are you saying that there is no hope for our marriage?" And he said, "NO!" So I told him to do what he has to do. And I walked back into the house and took my granddaughter with me to my mothers. (I had already planned on going to my mothers that day anyways before this all happened.) When I got back he had left, also left me a hateful letter, telling me of all my bad faults, some true and some not true.

Last saturday, after I had a yard sale, I had promised my youngest son to loan him 200 dollars that we made on the yard sale to buy his fathers pick up. My son just got hired at the same company his older brother works, and he said when he gets paid on the 10th that he will pay me back. He knows that money is going toward our savings to move, since we can't afford to live here anymore. When he got back with the pick up, I asked him what he needed the magic marker for that he had borrowed. And he told me that his father needed it to make a sign. I said, "What? Is he hitch hiking?" And my son said yes, and he seemed pretty confused about his fathers actions. I mean his son just gave him 200 dollars and he wants to go to Washington State where his mother and sister lives, so why didn't he just buy a bus ticket?

Everyone is praying for Richards safety, he is 60 years old and here in Arizona it is over 100 degrees for a man his age to be hitch hiking, also along with the crazys out there.

So, June 23rd marked my husband and my 23rd wedding anniversary. And no husband to celebrate it with me... he left hitch hiking on our anniversary... lovely anniversary present.

Well, the bottom line is... I feel my husband was under alot of pressure and couldn't handle it. This was his way of escaping, leaving me to handle it all. My husband had always been a man in charge, and under control. But it got out of control and he couldn't get control of any of this. If this makes any sense.

I am going to be alright. The Lord is giving me strength to go on. Even though money is tight, I know God is going to see me through it all.

Hello everyone,

I haven't been on here for an awful long time, to be honest I forget about this site...I have so many . But I wanted to share some awesome news... As most of you know, I am a writer/author. I finished my second book, and instead of going through a self publisher and be out that money like I was with my first... I submitted letters to 11 agents, along with on line, and I finally got a response from an agent that is very interested in my second book.  That means that they will be looking for a Christian publisher to help me get my book into the Christian book stores. That is why I am having problems with my first book, it wasn't published by a Christian publisher. Maybe once they get my second book, they will concentrate on my first book. Well, what ever happens it is in Gods Hands. All I can say is that God is opening doors for me. Praise His Holy Name!!