Last night I was chatting with my lovely cousin's daughter ,”Pegah”. she lives miles away ,beyond the ocean in the devil’s land. after a complicated conversation I was explaining to her that despite I always had lots of good friends but sometimes I cant tell anybody what is in my heart or mind. then she said a sentence which made a revolution in my brain.

She said:”im not kind of religious person or...but sometimes God is a good one to talk with”
What the hell do I think who I am?nothing more than just piece of shit. No one is perfect. me either. I think over many centuries emotions and the logic have a enormous fight, and in 99% emotions was victorious against logic. but i always try not to be a looser.
I have some stupid theories in this case. first of all in contrast with all my friends opinions I believe that if you like someone you don’t have to tell her. It depends on the conditions. if there are limitations and you truly love someone, for her own, for her personality for her soul, keep loving her in silence. I think you can dream so you don't have to be away from one another. If you're in each other's dreams, you'll always be together. In dreams and in love there are no impossibilities and limitations. and if the conditions are suitable you can reveal your heart-felt and make a logic marvelous friendship. but i beg you my friends,always control your friendship's depth.its crucial guys i know its difficult but try to be a logic person instead of emotional one in your relationships.
Now you judge which hurts the most: saying something and wishing you had not, or saying nothing, and wishing you had?
My second theory is simple but has not approved yet. When someone love someone else in a secret ,he is afraid of her. i mean when someone love someone else they try to not to become eye to eye or change their path to not to crossed on each other.and somethings like this.and i really dont know why.in my opinion watching, being with and thinking about someone whome you love is the prettiest feeling you can ever have.There is another fact. They say If you love someone tell them... because hearts are often broken by words left unspoken. thats the problem. to tell or not to tell .thats the problem. Soheil, one of my old friends says if you love someone and don’t tell her ,it’s a cruel treatment to her because maybe she likes you too .and that’s the funny story of a boy and a girl.once upon a time there was a boy there was a girl ,he loves her, she loves him.she didnt understand he loved her and he was not aware of her stealthy looks.both of them hide what was in their hearts and said nothing,and they never reach to another.what a harsh silence!

So third, I think keeping emotions under control is the most difficult thing someone can ever do. i know because I tried.but always consider this reality which If you judge people, you have no time to love them.
Weaks ago, ”Milad Mahmoodi” one of my friends said scientist’s researches shows everybody at least once fall in love between ages 15 and 21.and most of these romances are not successful.anyway when i think about myself i realize that i have little time.tic tac tac.
But whenever you feel you are the most loneliest guy on the planet remember what Pegah said.”God is a good one to talk with”

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