Self-destructive: watching Heroes DVD episodes two days straight, into the wee hours while recovering from a deep bronchial cough that had me off work on Friday.
We seek to create circumstances that afford the opportunity to define ourselves in moral terms; we do this specifically against a reality that does not willingly supply such terms.
It is always easier to imagine destroying the created than to ourselves imagine newly, and create. So it is with 'creating' moral circumstances: we tend to do this destructively, by breaking down ourselves and those around us to a critical moment where moral action is 'forced back' upon us 'from outside ourselves'.
A constructive alternative to this pattern is active love, which creates its own pattern of moral interdependencies.
We feel most vulnerable where we are most newly grown, and it is fear for this vulnerability that dissuades the path of creating moral circumstances through active love. Active love is a kind of boot-strapping self-growth of individuals through connection to other moral points in the universe, and universe-growth through elevated integration of parts. We should not fear harm coming to such new growth, for it is better that it exist a moment than never to be imagined.
see also
Black and White Universe