I just can’t believe I’m here for almost two and a half year. It’s like you’re blinking; the minute you first close your eyes has suddenly changed the next minute you open them. Time has passed so fast. I feel like swimming in a big lake of memories. Many experiences wandering in my mind, pictures after pictures have been projected, many events I have been a part of and many I have missed. They are so colorful which, sometimes, are very annoying that mess up my life, well, that’s student’s life, isn’t it?

I still remember vividly the first time I’m here at Silpakorn University. I have been warmly welcomed by the verdant trees and a huge pond, at the center of the university, that’s flowing, tirelessly fostering the whole area, like an artery to a human's heart. It’s like I’m being in another planet, the place is so peaceful. I have met strangers that later have become my friends, and some even bond a stronger friendship as they have become my close buddies. New dizzily complicated subjects have been introduced. The entire brand new dormitory life I have never tasted, and activities I have participated, some are totally awesome, yet some have bored me to death. These have taught me, as a first year student, the new perspectives toward life and people. Moreover, I have learnt that rules are something we should follow, but if we have a chance to break, we will never hesitate to do so (Don’t tell me you never play cards or drink alcohols in the dorm!!)

Trees have been cut down, water has been spoiled as there’s a new concrete building and more crowded vehicles. I feel like being trapped in a box thickened by the polluted-air! As a result, by the end of the second year, I’m like a wrecked chameleon that finally succeed to adapt itself to the different environment. Both study and my dorm’s life have drained loads of power out of me. I have changed my roommates couple times through out two years. My first two roommates have resigned from the university and my last three are too dirty that I can’t stand being with them. As the clock ticks by, I’m becoming lazy and lazy. My GPA has slanted down so much that my legs wobble while I am looking at it. Luckily, my compass eventually pointing to the North. As many help come to rescue me, bring me out of these rugs, and I'm becoming my old self again.

I don't know where is my next stop, my compass may not work properly again, I don't care. By far, I have learnt many precious things, much more than my expectation. I've learnt plaing rummy (Yes, finally!!), I have experienced the first car crash in my life, still a scar on my forehead. I have learnt that being an activist is good; nice and exciting, but if you are not born to do it, jusr get back to your specialty.

I have learnt not to judge people only by their appearances, still I have proved it wrong several times as the not-too-good-looking guy can definitely be a jerk. I have learnt that a friend is simply someone who will never leave your side as long as you remain being a good credit card. However, I also have learnt the truest definition of the same word. A friend is like an empty glass, waiting to be fulfilled with happiness or sadness you're willing to share, yet is ready to spill whenever you're over the limit. After the unbearable pouring, there's still room left for you to add up your story again.

Student's life has taught me to, once in a lifetime, being on my own two feet. I'm mentally strong as I ever imagined.

I just can’t believe I’m here for almost two and a half year. It’s like you’re blinking; the minute you first close your eyes has suddenly changed the next minute you open them. Time has passed so fast. I feel like swimming in a big lake of memories. Many experiences wandering in my mind. Good experiences will be kept securely in my treasure box, and the bad ones, phew!, they are like being written in bold fonts, they will never be easily erased. Still, I'm trying. One day if you open my skull up, you may find an old rubber, doing his duty somewhere.

Phew!! just another tough day passed by. the fact that i haven't post any new entries, i'd better put it as the problem with the connection issue, for a long time, it's like almost a month or so, made me feel like i've been distracted from my own world.

What made me feel like "Gosh!! i have to say sth" is that what i had watched on today's afternoon news .. it's about a baby that was born and all of the sudden, he was abandoned... resting in peace, i'm not sure was he really in peace, his body was finally found by the bus driver and it was utterly depressed to see that innocence, his limp body, arms, legs even head, everything just limp as he already died, being left to death.

i don't know what is wrong with them, i mean how can they do this? to babies, little creatures that couldn't even look after themselves. only a THING without heart could do it. Even animals won't do this kind of disgusting decision to their own bloods and you are human, god may had put you in human form but forgot to give you a heart and the conscience to judge things, instead he must have accidentally give you the most cruel and heartless demon's thoughts         

This is what's happened here lately in our society, the society we assume already-developed; high standard of living, high cost of living, high technology. it seems like there are so many HIGH quality stuffs in our life as we are developing and inventing new things everyday. the most important note is that one thing that doesn't seem to be developed moreover it's getting worse, is that people morality level and again that sex before marrige and the protection issue should be raised.

Well, if you can't be resposible for what you've done, you shouldn't even do it from the very first place. It usually occurs among teenagers and teenagers, they just wanna have fun and when things go wrong, they just can't figure it out by themselves so the abortion come to mind, one of my friend's friend did that too, i just can't believe she lent her some money,  to do this wrong and very contradict to our Thai culture but denied to pay her debt she owe me!!

Still, i just don't understand why people not pretty much into safe sex, i mean you just have a condom on and everything will be just fine. Maybe these will be happened only here in Thailand, i don't know :(

 

although this is not a proper place to speak these things out, i think this is my most favourite and safest place, like my own world that i can say whatever i want whenever i like to.