sheesh,

i dont know whats going on and why but i am crying like its no body's business...i am serious thinking that its just that time to let them out...been holding them in too long. i havent had a real reason to let them loose for a while. alot of things have been running by my head for a long time today, its been real tough trying to focus as well. i am happy, confused, miffed, contemplative, and just overall discombobulated. i need to really rack my brain and find out what the heck is wrong, i think i may have a idea. but until further notice; its the "tears of a clown" for me.

-AJ aka Mr. "emotional for whatever reason" Johnson

well people,

the above title comes from the fact that females state that they want that "nice guy" say that they are "ready" but as soon as they get one they mess it up, by running himn off, accusing him of infidelity, and a host of other bogus stuff. because sometimes they are scared to get close to that "nice guy" or that they just aint ready and do everythign to keep him close but in all actuality they are running him away. no real explaination no nothing. its a pyscho-analytical thing i guess. subliminal or something i guess...i mean how can you claim to want a guy of that caliber but run him off for whatever reason. then cry ya eyes out because he didnt stick around for you insane instability sessions. nice guys know that no one is perfect, but they rather talk to a girl that wont give them a headache because the lady is a "headcase" about him, because she "likes him so much so fast", thats a cool thing but dont make yaself crazy because you are digging him so bad! nothing wrong with the diggin' part its the wiggin' (wigging out) part that scares us.

heck i have had females tell me why they did what they did to me, and others tell my why they did what they did to other nice guys. and then they are upset that they have some loser and that the "nice guy" they want/had, has moved on and is either on the verge of walking the aisle or already on the honeymoon and making babies with their mate, which by the way isnt the girl who is questioning themself on why it aint them in the mate's place!

i say get out of your own way and get truthful with yourself before you try talking to a nice guy!!! he will love you to no end if you let him do him...force him otherwise he will run and despise you for life if you do him dirty...i am just being honest...really!!!

-AJ aka Mr. "why you trying to run me away with you craziness woman???" Johnson

ok my minions...LOL,

why i gotta settle? i mean sheesh my friend told me best (thanks LJC); she stated that "AJ you are like good credit;you are over 30, never been married, dont have any kids, not on drug or are an alcoholic, believe in God and attend church, you are a B.M.W. (if you dont know just ask your female friend), and you are nice guy; you dont have to settle..." and i agree. i wont settle, i am goign to get WHAT i want, why i gotta go for the first applicant to apply...heck no i am taking my time and scanning the aps with a keen eye, weeding out the "round file" apps off the top! sheesh i am good credit, i wont settle!!!

-AJ aka Mr. "are u serious? u think i am goign to deal with this crap? next application please" Johnson

my peeps,

when i made this statement it was the weekend that sean taylor was killed and i was overly touched by this because i was in DENVER the night darrent williams of the denver broncos was shot so it was serious for me because it touched a nerve. sean taylor was having it rough, and was living the wrong life for a sec and then turned it around and become the man he was to be and wanted to be. for whatever reason he was taken away. it was too soon i think but i am not the Man Above...so thats not my offical call, i can only give my opinion. sean could play his butt off, thats one thing i may not like a certain team but i will give props to the player who has the TALENT...but i digress. its too much to see these young men taken away, i try to tell my students that its not cool to just try and get that contract but its even cooler to make an impact, off the field, more so than on the field. use your notarity as a positive and not a negitive, BET, MTV, ESPN, is not going to bail you outta jail for mirroring the stuff you see on TV. be your own man! make your own descions!!! ok off my soap box because i am TIRED of this...it hurts!

-AJ aka Mr."sheesh, i cant cry no more about this" Johnson