part 2..

Still Sunday December 17th..

Praise God.. I am still not Bleeding, and Everything is still pretty regular. I came to church today (a little late) With the thought of giving my testimony regarding this menstrual problem i've had.. So while everyone enjoyed worship, i sat and contemplated, "should I go up and give my testimony? Nah, I will just tell the pastors after church and let them pray for me." Then Again, and Still I wasnt sure what i was gonna do.

At that moment.. In the middle of Worship.. Leon, an older man with alot of Words to give, spoke by saying.."there is someone here who has something to say.. I dont know who it is, but this person doesnt believe her words are of importance."

I then thought to myself.. "Could he be speaking to me? Could this be God revealing what I must do reguarding this testimony I am so desperate to share? I can't, I can't, I am too nervous, I'm scared, God i am not ready"

Then again, At the right Moment (GOD) says "This person is very nervous!"

AND THEN IT HIT ME!!! THIS IS FOR ME!!! GOD IS SPEAKING TO ME!!!

I looked up at my friend Kendra who was singing in the worship team. She was Looking back at me, Knowing that this messege was for me, she Knew that I wanted to give a testimony but was scared to do so..

I then stood up, Slowly walking up to the stage, saying outloud, It's Me Leon is talking about, Its Me, He's Speaking to me. I was trying to be confident, I was trying not to cry.. I was scared, Nervous, I HATE PUBLIC SPEAKING, I FEAR IT GREATLY! But all a sudden, I let loose, I started to shake, I began to cry, and it wasnt a Lord I love you cry, It was "OH MY GOODNESS I'm PETRIFIED" cry! As i approached the stage, Sean.. A very young elder of the church was "whoooooooooa'ing, and Whooooooooooooo'ing" Because he saw me approaching the stage..
You see.. Sean prayed for me at Flag Day at my last year of high school, My final exam for speech class, He KNEW that speaking was a HORRIFYING experience for me, So he KNEW what i was going thru, and He KNEW What was going to Happen at Any Given Moment!

I looked up as Kendra was handing me the Microphone, I slowly Grabbed it, Heart pounding, I stepped up the stairs to the stage, One step at a time, I turned around, TOOK A DEEP BREATH and...

"I have a testimony... God has Healed me"

PEOPLE CHEERED, APPLAUDED..

I carried On... "2 weeks ago, A guy came here from Australia came for a youth conference, He prayed for me.. He prayed for a healing over my body, and Had me repeat after him and DECLARE that I believe MY GOD is a HEALING GOD.. and I did! See, I have had a problem with my menstrual cycle, and according to doctors, If i didnt take Pills, I would Bleed to death, and I am here today to say, I HAVE BEEN HEALED!!!"

People Applauded, People Screamed "HALLELUIA"

and My last words.. "Thats all i have to say"

I turned to give the mic back to Kendra, and She gave me a Hug, as to be proud of me, Looked up at sean, and he had the biggest smile. I walked off the stage, and was Hugged, Spoken to, and Congratulated by Many of the Elders, who All knew about my Health as well as this Great Fear of Speaking..

I got back to my seat to my BEST FRIEND Brandy, who said " I CANT BELIEVE YOU JUST DID THAT" and "WOW!" It felt refreshing, I never shaken SO MUCH in my entire life, I was Petrified, but at the same time, For any FULLNESS of God, I must Submit, and Obey Him, When he said, Tanya.. Its your turn to speak, I SPOKE!!!

Thank you Lord for this Opening! This Beginning..

I didnt JUST get healed today, but I Believe it was the BEGINNING to the Delivering OF my fear of PUblic Speaking..

NEXT CHALLENGE??? SINGING! (that was confirmed as well)