You Know You Have Too Much Time On Your Hands When.....

1) You start tossing cards into a hat until you get all 52 cards in it.

2) You listen to your old CDs that you don't listen to anymore.

3) You talk with your teachers.

4) You listen to your parents old CDs that they don't listen to anymore.

5) You find that watching paint dry is interesting.

6) You write your Christmas list- months in advance.

7) You count the dots on your classroom ceiling.

8) You cook up a 3 course supper at lunchtime.

9) You memorize the alphabet backwards.

10) You're reading this list.

11) You re-arrange your room and back again.

12) You take down the posters in your room then put them back up in alphabetical order.

13) You watch the entire 'Planet of the Apes' series, one movie after the other.

14) You try on every combination your clothes can make.

15) You count the bricks on the wall.

16) You draw a perfect portrait of yourself when you normally really suck at drawing.

17) You take pictures of yourself.

18) You shred confetti.

19) You switch your teacher's chair for your own when he or she isn't looking.

20) You're willing to clean your room

21) You're STILL reading this list.

22) You read the dictionary.

23) You compose lists about having too much time on your hands.

24) Your family discovers that you can suddenly juggle eggs.

25) You draw a face on your hand and converse with it.

1. Carry a camera (cam phone is acceptable) at all time, you never know when those "kodak moments" will come round. BE READY!
2. Bully one close friend daily. One Bully a day keeps the doctor away. BUT Note that you have to be ready to be bullied back too, it's what friends are for you know.
3. Say something nice to random people you meet in random places. It's nice being nice to people even they are not your friends.
4. Learn a foreign word everyday and share it with friends. It's wayy so much fun when your friends and you can say something that other people have no idea what it is (but gotta be a bit careful ok?)
5. Pack one your favourite books along with your MP3 player, a bottle of water, and some snacks into a backpack and go sit at the airport - act like you are a world traveller - talk to people ... imagine how many interesting stories you will get to hear.
6. Go to a club that plays complete different kind of music you always listen to, get to see different scenes, different people with different attitutes - don't worry if you can't blend in - just enjoy the moment.
7. Book a hotel room for a night. Stay with your boo or a friend o' yours. Either stay in and chillin' or explore the area and all ... It's relaxing and fun.
8. With your friends, change names and last names for a day. Create new backgrounds and go out together .... imagine you all ARE in a movie/series and enjoy it!
9. Tell your family how much you love them and hug them. Do something silly together. (IE. I break danced with mum and belly danced with my brother already)
10. Photoshop your picture with some crazy people's pictures ...... we all know how fun it is!

So, I finally broke out of my comfort zone and give Levi a ring. It's been like what - 6 months? with no contact with him until not too long recently. Our friends are hoping we would forget about all those shits and dramas and become friends with each other again. Honestly, I probably won't be able to manage that. All I can give him acquaintanceship and that's all he is to me too.

I don't even know why I decided to ring him, but I remember hearing how surprised his voice sounded - it was so peaceful hearing his voice again.

We talked for almost an hour and he lost the connection beacuse he was in the building and the signal wasn't good. It was good though because I literally didn't know how to end the conversation. I didn't talk much apart from explaining him about different kind of dances I've been practicing, he was yapping away for the most part about his work his stuff and all.

Surprisingly I didn't feel sick or wanted to throw up like before, after the phone conversation we still had a quick chat on YIM for a bit before I had to hit the sack. I even added him back on my myspace profile, what the hell was I thinking?

He changed his status to "in a relationship" now ... does it hurt me? I don't know. I thought I was sad seeing that because after all those crap she's been treating him with he still chose to be with her. I honestly don't know how to word how I feel, it is like I am sitting in a grey area. It is calm yet so blue. I don't know how to explain, everything is like going in a slow motion to me today and I feel so numb.

Is it a good sign? Is it good that he finally have me back as a "friend"? Will it be healthy for my soul watching his life? Is he really happy? Is she going to treat him right? Are those even my fucking problem?

I am glad I didn't tell him how much I miss him and how much I love him still or my heart will be severly brutalised again.

You know, I've heard so many stories from so many people but all to me now seem like illusions. I feel as if I was floating in space with nothing to hang on to ....

Anyway, I have to teach now, will rant more later ... bare with me, will ya?