Ok so what was I thinking. Dating......what is the point. There is not one person out there that is serious about dating. Its all about that they can gain from me. Not about a commitment to a person. There are so many people out there to hurt others and not care cause there stuck up or think there better. Well what comes around goes around. The better person will prevale at the end. So for now I give up on dating and concentrate on myself.

Hey everyone,

I want to say hi to all my friends. You know who you are. I went to Richmond this past weekend with my friends Jean and Kathy. We went to the first meeting Of the James River Transgender Society held at the fan free clinic in richmond. It was a great meeting and I got alot of information and met alot of great new friends there and saw some others that I already knew. I think the group is going to do great things and help alot of girls like me with the help that we need.

After the meeting we went back to our hotel to get ready to go out to some of the clubs and to TGIIFF. Kathy and I dressed a little sexy in our leather skirts, fishnets, and heels. I let Kathy wear a pair of my knee high boots and she looked great in them. Ok so we dressed more then a little sexy.....LOL. Anyways we went to club Z2's first and met some girls there till 12am when the other club Fielden's where we have TGIIFF every first friday. Around 2am Jean was ready to go back to the hotel but Kathy and I stayed a little long......ok alot longer........ok I will tell the truth we stayed till 5:30am when the club closed. Then a group of us went to breakfast down the road from the club. Kathy and I didn't get back to the hotel till 7:30am.....lol....We called Jean at that time and she said you girls been up all nite and we said ummm....yea.......lol.....So that was our trip to richmond......sounded like fun huh! It was.......

So thats what is going on with me........Still trying to find a roommate and a job. Hope that will happen soon cause right now i'm staying at my moms and we don't get along that well. Yea she knows about me but isn't that supportive like the rest of the family. Maybe one day she will come around......if not oh well can't make everyone happy. Right now I need to focus on me and normally I don't. I try to help others more then myself which I know is a good thing but I have put my life on hold for others, friends and family. Well enough of my rambling for now.

More later

Hey everyone, so whats going on with me.....hmmm.....well really want to find a job that I can transion in, hate to go back to my old job cause I feel if I do then I'm going backwards and not getting anywhere with transioning. I know I probally should go back to my old job just so I can make money but I have been doing that for so long and putting my life on hold I now feel that I just can't do it even when I know I should.  Also I don't have much support in my life except from my great friends Kathy and Jean, they live over a hour away so makes it hard to see them as often as I like.  I want to relocate from where I am so I can get the support I need and the friends I have closer to me but finding a roommate has been really hard. Hopefully something good will happen soon. September is comming up soon which means SCC....for those of you that don't know what that means, that is Southern Comfort Conference....where I get to hang out with all my great friends for a week straight and be myself for that whole week. Right now my goal is to try to go semi fulltime by sept. and Fulltime by end of year.....I know its a big goal that may not happen but its a goal. I'm still not on any hormones or done anything like lazer but I feel that I should try to live fulltime and see if I can do it before I make permant changes. Anyways this is where I am right now. Oh if you are going to be at SCC let me know cause I would love to hangout and chat with everyone, met a good friend, hannah last year when I was there, she came up to me and said hi and we have been friends since. So if you see me there and know me say hi please. Well if anyone wants to chat or knows someone looking for a roomie then feel free to im me or email me.

Melissa