Thought might be better to do an entry before i go into irc and fry my brain some more.. it is funny tho that sometimes i am in several rooms and absolutely nothing happens for hours and then just as i out of time 3 or 4 different Dom/mes want to play in my head. it feels so good to be played with i sometimes cant resist and hang until there is no time left at all and i have to just sign off to come out of trance. even then now it seems to linger sometimes for a bit. i go back to dealing with rl but am sort of spacey for a bit.

there are some routines that i have been indtructed to do in rl i think but it is kind of hard to telll if actually do some of them or not. i find little missing poeces of time occasionally. cant help but wonder if i will llose like a whole evening or day cause i was off being a doll.

makes me smile with anticipation and shiver with fear