Holli and I remain friends - she found another and really could not deal with a long-distance relationship. There are other reasons why, but will remain disclosed. I am not shocked by this. I really did thought we were going to be together forever. I know in my heart that we would have made it last. Last night after we had talked, I listened to some songs, especially 2 that means a lot to us; "Bubbly" by Colbie Caillat and "Teardrops on My Guitar" by Taylor Swift. I just cried and cried. Holli made me really happy!

Am I still going to Iowa? Well, at this time, I am still unsure cuz it's still early morning and will be calling the travel agent later on. Since I can't get my money back if I cancel the flight, I will change the state (possibly the date too) and will be going to New Hampshire (Yes, Kari and I are together again). If I end up changing the date, I wanna to be closer to June 15. I can't change it for the next week after cuz that's when my nephew Rodney will be graduating from high school. I'd be lucky if I can get it the next following week which will be close to 4th of July. After that, no can do cuz Kari and Danny's anniversary is that week. Sooooo... I wouldn't mind if I do go to Iowa anyways if I don't go to New Hampshire. It'd be nice to meet Holli although it'd be hard seeing her and her and her new beau cuz all I wanna do is just hold her and kiss her forever (which is the reasons why I feel I shouldn't go). At least a peck on the lips or cheek :) . Oh yeah, another thing, I do not think it'd be best if we get back together if things do not work out with either of our partners cuz we both have been through so much, and I'd probably find someone more local (like she has).

Faith in Love

by Reba & Rascal Flatts

You felt this coming on, you've seen it for a while ~ But there are no regrets between us ~ We can leave her with a smile ~ We have to talk about it, what we've always known ~ The hardest part about today ~ Is tonight we'll be be alone {Chorus: ~ We were just two hearts ~ Bound for different roads ~ Why they didn't lead us to forever ~ We may never know ~ Oh, I will carry you with me ~ I will hold on to our memories ~ Don't let the dreams we didn't find make you feel like giving up ~ Keep holding on ~ And don't lose your faith in love} ~ Life's gonna move on and the pages have to turn ~ We'll be stronger people now ~ Fromthe lessons that we learned ~ This one's gonna hurt, it's a little deeper break ~ But just know I'm praying for you ~ Heaven knows who's waiting for you ~ When two hearts come undone {Chorus} ~ Oh, I will carry you with me ~ I will hold on to our memories ~ Don't let the dreams we didn't find make you feel like giving up ~ Keep holding on ~ And don't lose your faith ~ Oh, never, ever lose your faith in love ~ Don't ever lose your faith

I really miss being on the internet. I wanna go to my multiply, myspace, fubar, and other things. Grrr....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Well yesterday I went to work, but very, very, very few factory workers were there. Amanda (daytime worker) didn't come in, Bruce didn't, I don't think Barb did either, but when I went to check to see if the bathrooms were okay, Danielle came in. I told her I wasn't staying cuz there wasn't much to do. She called Bruce and he just said to check the garbages and the guard Frank said the cafeteria a bit messy. Danielle didn't mind me going, so she probably didn't stay long to work. I don't know why Tammy had us to work on Memorial Day. Geez! Today is supposed to be my day off, but I am going in anyways (just like Barb worked on her day off last Friday).

Since I didn't stay to work, I went to Geneva with my mom, Laura, Greg, and Austin to take Austin back home. I like going there... Seneca lake is absolutely beautiful. I'd like to at least stop by the lake so I can take pictures. They have a park where people sit on the benches or walk. Sometimes they might have event going on there. Somewhere in Seneca Falls or outside of that town, they have a camp site and I'd love to camp there someday. I saw it back when my sister used to live there a few years ago and went camping there for a month one summer.

I really miss Kari. I last spoke to her last Thursday or Friday and she went to a friend's wedding on Saturday. I tried calling her last night, but she wasn't there. Hopefully she will be tonight. Holli and I are doing wonderful. 18 days to go till we meet each other! I am excitedly nervous and wish the days would go a little faster. lol Right now, I am a little worried about my holli bear cuz she's going through some crazy stuff and I just want to take her away from it all. Maybe we can rent a hotel room for day and there'd be no interruptions. I love you Holli.

Well hope everyone has a good day (and remember, I wrote this through yahoo messenger-plug-ins).

My mom and I usually put plants on the graves, but didn't do it this year. Still, I'd like to put one on my late aunt June's grave. Next year we'll probably able to do it. Well I am having trouble with the internet again. We need a new antivirus-spyware thingy on here cuz I can't seem to go to like photobucket, myspace, multiply, or even to look up something. I am writing this through Yahoo Messenger (the Plug-ins). Did everyone have a good weekend? It almost feels the weekend is still going since this being a very important holiday. I'm sure some of you will be having a BBQ. I wish I was we were having one. I wish I didn't have to work tonight. I wondered if there will hardly anything to do since I don't think hardly anyone will be at the factory. I wouldn't mind leaving work early or not working at all.

This morning, my nephew Matt had a sudden urge to clean the kitchen. The last time he cleaned part of the living room and now this. When he was little, he loved to clean, especially dishes except his own bedroom. My mom is making rubarb-strawberry pie. I don't like it. I think my sister may help her eat it. I'd love to make the banana split cake again. Go to my http://lizzy915.multiply.com blog for the recipe. It's more like a pie, not a cake. I really hope to make it when I go see Holli in Iowa next month. I know she and her kids will love it! And of course, grilled bbq chicken; Absolutely shocked she has never had it! When I told my friend Barbara what Holli said "am I gonna fall in love with it?" Barbara added, "Yes. Then you're gonna make love to it!" LMAO!!! Barb is so funny.

I can't wait to see Barb today cuz I found the book "Secret" by Rhonda Byrnes (I borrowed the audio book from her) at Kmart. I'll get it soon. Right now, I am in the middle of reading "Pillers of the Earth" by Ken Follet. I have to return it to the library this Friday, so I won't be able to finish it. I had the book for a month, but I've been so busy with other things or just felt not in the mood to read a book. I will buy that book at Kmart too. It's a really good book. I recommend BOTH of these books.

I wanna say Happy Birthday to my mom's friend Clara and Holli's daughter Destiny (they share the same birthday). Hope they both have a great birthday on this special Memorial Day.